A while ago whenever I watched TV I thought everyone was joking about me. The worst it got is when I was watching a golfing tournament. It showed all the players standing around laughing and I thought they were joking me. Then it showed people in robes and I thought it was reference about me. When I was skinnier someone told me I looked like a famous actor then they showed a golfer who looked exactly like that actor. I was starting to gain weight as well and I thought there were billboards around the golf course about my weight. Then a random golfer said it’s a fiesta and I thought it was reference to something that happened to me.
I was convinced it was true for a while. I feel for others who experience the same thing.
I’ve thought the tv and the radio were sending me messages before. It’s scary when this happens. Since adding the Clozaril it seems to have gone away. The only advice I can give is to just turn the tv off. Good luck
i never watched a lot of TV. But I listened to a lot of music. I had similar thoughts, songs that didn’t mean much had huge and profound meaning to me at different times. I would start hearing voices that said the songs were written for me specifically. At my worst, I was told that I created music and that I had written all of the songs and music ever written, because i was some sort of divine personality.
I also heard odd musicians send me personal messages. To save the world somehow. It was very hard to hear stuff like that.
I used to think I was being made fun of, especially when people created characters with my name seem dopey or stupid. But then I realized, they often make male characters in american tv look dumb for the benefit of the mostly female viewers. Then there were things I did that people seemed to call out on tv.
I tried looking for this old simpson’s clip that reminded me of this, where homer thinks the tv is talking to him. I never thought when I watched that cartoon that some of the craziness that went on in the characters head would occur to me. Life is weird.
Best to avoid the TV, I think.
I always get paranoid while watching TV, myself. I can’t explain it well, but the screen just hurts my eyes, makes my head feel awful, and its scary, like it’s physically doing something to my brain. I’m also too paranoid about brainwashing and subliminal things from programming, so there’s that.
I used to get really strange feelings from looking at a mirror when it isn’t pointed at me, like at any time an apparition could appear. Not anymore though, for that I’m glad. But it is bad interior design from what I hear to have mirrors breaking the space. Maybe the same is true of tvs.
They don’t call it programming for nothing. The point I’m trying to make is writers employ certain techniques to create depth and intrigue. One of these is Melitzah, which you can look up on wikipedia. I posted an example of Melitzah last night in the creativity section. To understand the hidden meaning of my example you would have to be familiar with Hemispheres by Rush. It’s meant to be undetectable to those who aren’t in the know. The problem is that when one has the information in the back of their mind and does not make a clear identification of the literary device, it pokes the mind anyway and the reader/viewer is affected and doesn’t know why. Also, if one is unaware of the literary device, the message is taken at face value. My apologies for last nights post, but I had a feeling that it might be helpful to understand such things. I thought it would be easier to post an example of Melitzah rather to explain. They don’t call it programming for nothing.
I can’t watch news on TV bcuz then I get paranoid. It’s a big trigger for me. And my husband loves watching news. So I can’t watch with him when he’s looking at news. Movies are ok but mustn’t be violence and killing then it triggers me to have intrusive thoughts.
