too many
like mind control i feel it is real
there is people who control every thing in world remotly
sometime i feel people targeting me
sometimes i feel cars on the street targeting me
sometimes i feel intelligence agencies targeting me
what about you ?
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That nothing is real. Probably my biggest one. That what I see is an illusion. That I’m a brain in a vat.
Luckily, it is rare now. Doesn’t cause distress anymore.
Oh and I’m stuck in a loop. That drives me nuts lol.
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Been relatively stable over ten years now without any serious episodes. Would have to say that, although I still get breakthroughs usually when stressed…I haven’t really had any delusions for years. As far as positives there’s always the paranoia and ideas of reference always annoy me but touch wood most of those delusions are from long ago!
Keep on the pills. If they work you get to a place when you look back on that and just think- damn…I was tripping some balls there. It wasn’t real even though everything told me it was! I don’t revisit those days although it’s all so clear even now!
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Rogueone’s experience sounds like my own. I have some long-standing fixed beliefs and frames of reference that won’t budge no matter what people tell me. But there have been other beliefs that looking back I can definitely say were off-base, to say the least.
Such as fearing radiation weapons that my neighbors were using against me, sonic surveillance, heh, total bat ■■■■ that kinda stuff was. Literally in the case of echolocation to monitor what I was doing in my home.
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I relate. I had ideas of reference too.
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Depends on who you talk to I guess.
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I have an existential crisis everytime I wake up in the morning. I have a hard time with overthinking about humans being pointless, violent creatures. About aliens, and how corrupt the world is, how democracy is a lie, all that stuff.
But… all my friends do the same thing. So I think it’s just a generational thing to hate the world, question authority and feel desperately hopeless, I mean, we were born into a broken world without asking to be born. There’s enough resentment in that fact that would fuel my hate for years.
I also have a severe hatred of cops but I also don’t think that’s a delusion. Just a very very strong dislike of cops.
I guess my delusions are more about me being magical. Reading others minds, controlling the weather, ect. That’s fun because I feel powerful. Sometimes I think people are reading my mind, and that’s an awful unsafe feeling.
I have a crazy fear of the world ending, and I sense disaster everyday. Like, do you remember how you felt when you first heard about 9/11? It’s like that feeling times 1000 on a cosmic scale of shitsfuckedup. Except I don’t know what’s going to happen.
So I mostly worry about earthquakes, supervolcanos, nuclear winter, climate change, ect. I also eat that Niburu/Planet X sh1t up for breakfast. So I stay away from apocolypse theories now because it effects my life too much. I don’t like living in fear.
Sad though since this fear originated from an obsession of the world ending since I was little. I was super interested in apocolypse conspiracies, it was like a hobby for me. But now I’m too scared.
I think that maybe I’m in some tv show and I can’t notice. Kinda like the Truman show thing.
I think I’m dead, and have for years. Probably because I have wholeheartedly tried to kill myself at LEAST 30 times and was unsuccessful. So then comes the immortality delusions.
I’ve been having a really hard time lately with something else. I have very vivid memories of past lives. Past present and future. This first happened when I was 5, and I remember it clearly. I remember so many different lives, I confuse my memories with other people’s memories.
It makes me feel like I am everyone, doomed to live out life after life on an infinite loop. Or maybe when I died someone forgot to wipe my memories so I can remember my past lives so well. I also believe I am being cursed for being bad in a past life, that’s why I have all these difficulties now.
Other then that, I love conspiracy theories. I fully believe quiet a lot of them. Don’t think it’s farfetched at all that we have been, and are continuing to be lied to and manipulated by school, the government, ect.
I’m sure all governments are terrible, false flag operations are a real proven thing, aliens are alive and well but don’t care about us weak earthlings, and we are doomed to fail because of human selfishness. Democracy is a lie and we are all slaves to the system.
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Apparently everyonesqoutf to get me
I’m immortal and people are always watching me but it could be worse
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A multiverse I’m a soul I travel I explore but things hunt me because I’m a soul they hunt us all, and the nonphysical is dark matter but the physical is matter but why two types of matter how do nonphysical beings age and die I don’t understand
A soul is powerful a soul in the nonphysical disrupts the reality around it largely subconsciously but can we do the same here or no? Why is here so stable? I have so many questions God won’t answer. You can’t ask the devil anything because it’s just lies, it’s a joke.
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When I was getting over my psychosis I legitimately believed I was Satan. I thought I was responsible for all human suffering and that I was going to be brutally tortured as punishment. I’m so glad to be over that now.
I don’t think I have any delusions now. My meds are working overtime. 
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I can relate a lot. I thought I was the antichrist. Luckily, I am not. He comes from EU I’m told. I’m just a schizophrenic. I’m a good person.
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I had delusions that I was racist and the media was covering me, then when I was in the hospital Donald Trump came and pardoned me
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I am now doing very well I do have fleeting thoughts and I can sometimes get a bit triggered by conversation or TV.
Mine are persecuted delusions. Being spied on and plotted against. It’s hell once it gets bad. I hope I continue down the path I am going.
Indeed you are. The Antichrist and Satan are Not real, friend. I would much rather there just be complete darkness in my afterlife. Nothing we EXPERIENCE in our heads on Earth ever works out for the worst, why should there be an afterlife?
Part of my delusions are that we live in a matrix simulation. So the simulators, if they wanted, could be Christian. Even some atheists have brought this up. I believe in good and bad aliens.
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For me, aliens are more then a delusional thought. I believe in aliens like a religious person would believe in god I guess. Like solid fact, even though others don’t believe.
I guess if you think about it they have more evidence about aliens vs god. Still not enough though.
But that’s a touchy subject that’s probably best left alone.
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Mostly the standard ones.
Mind control
Thought broadcasting
Conspiracies
People trying to poison me
People plotting to kill me
I’m not actually real
Always being watched
One I can’t seem to shake, is the feeling that everyone in the universe, but me, is part of some grand scheme. Everything I think to be real, isn’t. My entire reality is fabricated by everyone else, to keep me in the dark.
Its hard to explain. I don’t think this post is making much sense of it, sorry.
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I dont believe anymore in my delusions, but was about the CIA reading my mind, I believed they can control me, I never seen a proof of control over all my body.
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Thank you for that post…very inspirational!