Reality is what our brain perceives. Schizophrenics live with two realities. Nature chose us to be this way!
We cant share our experiences with people - in a world where so many types of madness are so rampant but just those others are not classified as an illness!
I have accepted my split mind, however, recently, i have come across people ( my shrink,close ones, friends) trying to redefine my problem, my wants, my thinkings and my feelings after a psychotic episode.
Should I explain what really happened, or shut up because being a schizophrenic its best to keep people happy with what they think, Rather than offer a crazy explaination?
Somehow this time, the problem that has been falsely identified and has really shot my temper up. Its churning my grudge against the society , the schizo stigmatization, the incessant stupid people and their dictation.
Has any other schiophrenic gone through the same situation, where ur indivduality is challenged ? Where u take so much pain day in and day out to wear a mask and something else made out of your facade?
I found that explaining what happened leads to nowhere. People don’t really want to know, or do for preverted reasons, or to feel better about themselves. I have yet to find a person that listens with compassion, but that’s just my experience, some might find it different. It’s better just to tell them you have an illness and are fighting for recovery, that they understand.
Sure, I think all of us, even the neurotypicals, hide behind a mask. It’s the way society works, appearances and the illusion of normalcy.
Well, my whole psychotic episode was termed Bolly-movie-influenced. I was kinda degraded with Bollywood movie connotations.
I think it points to a deeper problem in the society, people learn all their psychology from films and tend to make every psychoanalysis from that flask. Sadly, even professionals are susceptible to that bias.
Yeah, well, not all. My therapist explains sz like a dream state, and gets angry when I talk about myself as a crazy person. My pdoc I don’t know, he thinks I don’t know anything about anything, but I don’t really show that I know. Those are all the references I’ve got. Maybe someone might chime in and say differently, but I think professionals of mental health lack in understanding mental health. I like it when people with mental illnesses go to the field, they can relate to the issues. Neurotypicals can understand well the theory (well, some at least) but lack the experience in living it. Some do try hard though. I don’t like to go against because it’s not an easy field to navigate and operate.
But I do agree that the vastness of the human population learns psychology from the movies and tv Too bad for them, really, psychology is so interesting
Oh that’s too bad. It’s because they generalize madness that madness is so poorly understood.
I’m so tired of watching movies and tv shows that portray psychotic breaks as psychopathic tendencies, using use the phrase “You’re psychotic!”
It’s like ice cream. It comes in many many flavours, but at the end of the day it’s still ice cream. The generalization is appropriate. It’s pushing back against the symptoms and treating them that is important.
It depends, my pdoc refuses to treat my moods because he thinks I’m making a big deal out of nothing, thus generalizing my issues. He wants to treat the psychosis and does a good job in doing so, but the moods need to taken care of, and in his generalization he minimizes the problem.
They were treating my moods until they became concerned the Effexor could be affecting my QT Intervals. Now I’m treating my own moods. (Vape vape vape…)
Edit: Sarcosine helps as do probiotics. And nicotine. Not having stupid people in my life would help more, but… Sigh.
Ahah irritability comes with the territory with mood issues. My mom is in her 60’s she’s not stupid at all but repeats herself a lot without realizing it, I have to remind myself that I love her because it gets on my nerves! It’s not her fault, as it’s not their fault they’re stupid. Although yeah, information is out there, a little digging wouldn’t hurt anyone.
(I know it’s a forbidden topic but damn, the google searches in the UK after Brexit, well just look it up. The stupidity amazes me)
You’re right. People who haven’t had schizophrenia could never understand how it affects us. It does contain a pretty strong stigma. I’ve just resigned myself to the situation. It’s easier than trying to educate people about it.
Others cannot understand what you are going through. I think they would like to reduce it to something they understand. I myself have found truths from my psychosis. You have to roll with the punches to get to what’s real. Know yourself and your own mind. Never bother to explain it to them.
Too bad for them, really, psychology is so interesting 