my first break in the year 2000. looking back i didn’t know my heart could hold such pain and empty suffering. the most empty feeling one could ever feel, pure agony on earth
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I’m glad you wrote that. Yeah, I had tremendous suffering in my twenties. My life has been relatively sweet for decades now, however.
Jayster
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from the suffering and pain, id reakon PTSD is the after shock for most of the people who suffered the pain of a nervous breakdown. the after shock
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lets go down to the waters edge and cast away our douths
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Me too, pretty much. I get tons of uncomfortable symptoms daily. But I have not suffered since 1990 and I live on the edge of sanity but I have had few crises.
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its great to get stuff of ones chest weather it be in cyber world or in real life, a problem shared, is a problem halfed, as they say.
although im in remission two year from syptoms of all illness’s and issues, some little memories surface and cause sadness and stress but only lasting a hour or two,ive learnt too acept it and move on… then i rise above and im fine and dandy again, over all i do enjoy my life most times, on a brighter note ive become optimistic and willing to move on to enriched life and i can tackle any mishaps along the way because of what ive learnt 
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if PTSD was a psychal illness, i would have a limp in one leg and ive to learn to walk on it, but its not psychal, i can not change the past by i can and do rise above the trama most of the time, by living in the present moment, just sometimes it comes to the surface and i always shed tears from it because of the damage it caused
can say the past two year ive turned a major corner on the road of life, a seed has being sowing, i am a different person now. i no longer have daily battles i mostly have daily inner peace which triggers harmony and delight, i learnt to appeicate the little things in life that are over looked, such as sight touch ect the appreication of all the sense’s, and grateful of things such as food, clothing,warmth, free will of choices, forfillment of desires, and almost unafraid of lifes offers…i had to transform in areas of my life to get to where i am now. i feel blessed
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There was an idea I got from @onceapoet in a different post… I don’t think I remembered it correctly but I tried my best anyway and I found it to be very helpful…
Get some stones… write my pain upon the stone and go to a river that I don’t think I’ll ever revisit…
Get that pain and suffering into the stone and cast it into the river to be washed away.
when your out of rocks, turn and go… and don’t go back an revisit.
We all had suffering and pain… I still hate facing parts of my past as they bubble up in the calm moments of my mind.
I am beginning to like who I am most of the time… I feel like a work in process. But I couldn’t be who I am today if I didn’t have the path I had… I don’t want to revel in my darkest times… But I do want to get them out of my skin.
It’s a balance.
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Everyone has pockets of pain that come up-sometimes at the strangest times. I always just let it come up. I know if I don`t, it will run through everything I do.
I am sorry Pedro. Life really is bittersweet at times…But you have a great attitude about focusing on the good things
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