I was just thinking.
I face bad symptoms, especially paranoia, EVERY day. The world is a chaotic, confusing dangerous place to me. But I feel lucky.
Jayster often says his life has been “sweet” for quite awhile. Well I can say the same thing about mine. I’m older than a lot of you and many of my symptoms have gone away. But it wasn’t until about two months ago that I realized how much I have it made.
What happened was I ran out of medication for about 4 or 5 days. By the fifth day, the scary, numbing, paralyzing symptoms started coming back.I haven’t felt those in ten years. It helps me understand some more what some of our more symptomatic members are going through. I’m not putting myself above anybody here. I had those CONSTANT symptoms for YEARS when I first got sick. I’ve done my share of suffering. But I got a tiny refresher course in suffering like I could sense @anon59133895 and @sasha were going through and others. I know its hard, but I’ve outlasted the worst of it, and I’m looking forward to the future. I hope you guys can find some peace too.
hey,
It’s no shame if your symptoms decline!
It’s no problem that after ten years of religiously taking anti psychotics I do better than most. Life is all about choice and I enjoy a good mental state from taking those pills…
Saying that…I’ve read 4 books in ten years. I used to read 3 books a week till problems at 29. I used to have energy and not take naps most days just to get through! I used to stay up late and wake up at 5 am…I go to sleep at 6 pm most nights and wake up sedated!
Enjoy. You don’t rip on people simply because your doing better…that is something to celebrate!
You’ve done the hard yards…we’ve all been there…that isn’t a problem if your advice helps just one person here!
A friend in the struggle,
rogueone.
Well, thanks for that rougeone. I do feel guilty sometimes about doing better than someone else. I feel I’m cheating or something.
I couldn’t agree more.
Things are really rough for me right now. Sorry I have not been active on here. I miss you all. I am happy for you though. 
anyone can be miserable stay positive! you deserve some happiness.
You were looking for a place to live, right Sasha?
@sasha, I have really been worried about you and your partner? please stay in contact???
there is nothing wrong with me…i am cured !?!
my purple one eyed doctor said so !!!
take care
We found a place to live. But things are less than ideal and we worry about making rent.
I will try to do better at staying in touch.
Sasha, you lost your job. right? I was just thinking, have you ever considered being a waitress? Or a hostess? Waitresses make good money in tips. It’s often not too hard to get jobs in restaurants because they have a high turnover and are often looking for people. If you have gotten better maybe you could look into getting a job at Walmart as a greeter or somewhere else. Maybe you aren’t ready to work.
I am trying to get SSDI I am not sure of working will mess that up
Yes, it’s more important to get SSDI. If you’re able to, you can work later.