Decisions decisions

So I’m planning to move back to US after descending to my parents house sequela to my psychosis and hospitalization and becoming homeless for a while. I need to re obtain vital documents for my citizenship in US, like passport and social security etc.

I’ve obtained a birth certificate from NJ, which is necessary to get a replacement passport in order to apply for the copy of my SS card, which I need for employment when I move back.

I need to make a trip to Tokyo to get to the US embassy, for my passport. I’ve purchased the plane ticket already.

The problem is that my work is demanding me to have a 14day quarantine after I come back from Tokyo. That will mean me losing on roughly 700$, and that my co workers will have to cover me.

Should I be sympathetic towards my co workers about having to cover me, and them possibly losing day offs? Or wait three more months to get vaccinated hopefully around august and put a hold on the whole scheme of moving back as my psychosocial recovery?

Yeah I’ll be accumulating a bit more money, but if I don’t go, I feel like I’m slowing down in moving forward in my life. I’m thinking screw it and go anyways…

Am I behaving erratically ?? What would you do?

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I wouldn’t wait. Yes it sucks to have to quarantine, but it’s just life right now for the whole world.

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I would look at getting back as soon as you can. Quaranteen is a short period in the grand scheme of things. You need to look after yourself first, then you can help others.

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Idk about you but I prefer living close to my family and not in another far country. Family supports and helps me. Unless you have a bad family like drug addicts thats another story.

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I mean Japan is a good and developped country.

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Yeah… I feel the same losing money is the set back, I’m not worried about contracting COVID tbh😕

Your right, it feels better to know that, it’s not just me with quarantine and all

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That is true… deep down I do think that my co workers get reciprocated by getting paid in the end of the day😶 maybe win some lose some.

I do feel fortunate to still have employment after coming back from the trip though.

I agree… but US is my home country where I was born raised and lived for my entire life🙁 I am totally scared of leaving the home away from my parents support and sometimes wake up shook at times thinking about leaving, to be honest.

But I can’t shake the idea of having friends again and having a shot at having a better work… I want to go to college again. Have a girlfriend… life

It’s sad, but my parents will pass away eventually… and I would be left with no body. At the same time, they are getting old, so I do feel guilt for not spending more time with them; me moving out will mean less. It’s my dilemma

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Why cant you have these in Japan where you are now?

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My parents moved back to Japan from US few years ago… I really wished they stayed

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I’d choose being close to family.

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I guess I could be glorifying my memories back when I was living there before my psychosis. I feel a bit better, and more stable with my affect compared to when I first moved.

I just sincerely believe that I would not qualify for any type of employment with reasonable pay here in Japan… I feel I have more opportunities their in the US.

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My father says that I need to accept my defeat in the states… but I just don’t want to give up…

It’s really a hard decision… at a level where me thinking that life could be possibly better if I moved back is delusional.

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Thats what I am thinking, I did the same while psychotic and regretted it. Risked being hospitalized in Germany. Lived there for 4 months. It was mostly hell and I wasted like 20 000$cad.

It’s hard to tell if It’s a delusion… but for me when I was psychotic and delusional, I didn’t “believe” in things. It was simply how it was.

Like I was Jesus. And all kinds of religious and superior figures. In my head. I didn’t believe it, I just was.

I don’t know the difference between daydreaming and hallucinations anyways…

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I for sure wouldn’t quit your job or move until you’ve got housing and a job lined up in the states.

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That is what my father told me the other day… but seems impossible to find a job so far away :slightly_frowning_face:
I’m thinking of saving up enough money to pay first/last month and safety deposit of an apt, and few to live off for few months

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Moving away sounds very risky to me because you won’t have a support system in place if you move so far away

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To be honest, I wouldn’t leave Japan for the US. It’s so hard to get by here. Do you have any place to live when you move? Right now you have a job and a home and support.

Japan is far more civilized than the US when it comes to a lot of things.

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