I never used to be an angry person… now I find myself dealing with rage all the time. Maybe it has to do with me cutting back on cigarettes and weed, or new medication. But it’s terrible. I just get so angry I literally want everyone to die. I get bad violent thoughts and I can’t really control what I say. It’s like the entire world is my worst enemy, and I want to fist fight the planet. I’ve had issues with this for a bit over a year. A few times I’ve been in public places and gotten uncontrollably livid. Clenched fists, shaking, swearing at everyone, just wanting to fight. Funny since I’m 5’2 little girl who’s never been in a physical fight in my life. I hate this bitterness though. It feels cancerous. I need help finding strategies to calm down. Nothing to do with your fake god or any sort of religions please, that will make me even more furious.
Sorry. I guess saying ‘your fake god’ is pretty rude. Everyone is allowed to believe whatever they want to. I’m just in such a pissy mood right now. I can’t seem to help be antagonizing…
When I stopped smoking weed it was hard to control my emotions. I think it’s just going to take time and patience. Deep and controlled breathing helps.
If this happened right after you switched to a new med, there is a very rare but serious side effect to some ADs that causes homicidal ideation and fits of rage, especially in teenagers. It usually causes more than just thoughts, though. Have you ever lost control and actually damaged property/people? If not, then this probably doesn’t apply to you.
If this has been going on for a year, have you told your doctor? What do they think about it?
@Ninjastar I’ve had a few meltdowns recently where I did scream as loudly as I could, thrown some of my things around, and such. I also did self harm recently because of the rage. I think the worst thing about this is the thoughts of hurting my animals. I love all animals more than ANYTHING in the entire universe, and if I hurt one I would literally not be able to live with myself. I’ve noticed my anger getting worse since the switch of meds, but I say the year thing just because a year or so ago I was not an angry person. I was very cool, and level headed for the most part. But things have seem to only getting worse. My doctors haven’t really said much about my rage. I’ve even gone to the hospital before for homicidal thoughts and they turned me away due to little beds avalible. Maybe no one takes me seriously since I’m small and cute.
I am 21 now! There’s sadly been a few times I have been extremely sick and gotten turned away from the hospital. One time I went in telling them I had a plan and everything, they apologized and said ‘do you think you can be okay for a night? We can call you tomorrow’ Needless to say I wasn’t okay and had a very serious attempt of suicide.
That is horrible. Well, do your best to make your doctor listen to your concerns. Tell him all about your fears of hurting animals and your meltdowns and your uncontrollable rage. You are your own best advocate. Write down a list of all your homicidal thoughts and behaviors and show it to him. Call him a whole bunch and bug him about it. Sometimes, you have to be persistent to get treatment.
And, if you’re really worried you might hurt your animals, it might be best to have a friend or foster family look after them temporarily. You don’t want to do something you will regret.
The best thing for anger is trying to understand where it’s coming from and why you feel like that. Like has anything been going on that’s been stressful? And if something happens that makes you angry try to ask yourself why it makes you feel like that. Cause understanding your emotions is the first step to controlling them. But also try to exercise and follow it up with a calm activity like drawing or writing or something cause I found sometimes creating something can help curb the urge.
@Noise my problem with the anger is that it comes out of nowhere, and I can’t for the life of me figure out why it’s happening. It’s uncontrollable, and seems to happen without reason. Thank you for the advice though, when my negative symptoms aren’t as bad and I’m less depressed I will try to pour my feelings into something creative. I’m sure that would help a lot.
Hmm I don’t know. I’m sorry the only other thing I can suggest would be to keep something cold with you like eating some ice cause keeping yourself cool can help sometimes. But I do hope you can start feeling better cause I know how exhausting it is to be angry all the time. if you need to vent at all I’m here for you ok?
I had an anger problem for a number of years, although probably not this severe. I would work out to exhaustion. As in so tired I couldn’t get off the floor. It helped.
Once I was able to get off the floor I would have a bath and a benzo and go to sleep.
I don’t really have a bad temper but I can get pretty angry sometime. I find that letting it out a little at a time satisfies me so that I don’t build up one angry episode.and unfairly take it out on just one person. Sometimes my anger is just self-indulgent and so I try to stop it and not indulge in the the feeling before I make myself really, really angry.
I had a lot of problems with anger. I used to get mad at my family a lot. The only thing that really helped me was to leave the situation and take a nice long walk. It wasn’t hard to do because I was really angry and did not mind at all being really rude. No excuses given. Just “I’m going for a walk”. My dad used to use this technique too. I think it helped him. For me, at least it got me away from them when I was the most angry. And also let me calm down a bit.
@amethyst I just came back from a nice walk, it does help things! This is my go to for when I get upset, and usually it works great! Only sometimes I’m too paranoid and I get agitated by the police in town and people going about their lives. I’ve found the best time for me is evening since it’s not too busy that I’m anxious but it’s also not too dark that I start seeing shadow creatures chasing me, lol.
