Ok so lately I’m paranoid over people I live with that they want to fight me and pick on me. I’ve had some issues with them and I just find it hard to deal with other personalitys. I feel dulled emotion still and I remember when I used to get fired up over people my question is why do I think over and over again about how people can be rude and selfish. I also had a gay experience that I felt was forced upon me does this make me bi sexual now?
I think the repetitive thinking mulling things over and over is a symptom you should discuss with your pdoc. I don’t think you are bi you are not active in that life style,and it sounds like you were not exactly a 100% willing . Relationships are hard for people with sz. I try to limit my close relationships to safe people.
Only if you’re attracted to the same sex. And if you are, don’t sweat it – what gender you are attracted to is not something you can control, nor does it say anything about your character. I am sorry to hear you were forced into an uncomfortable situation.
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Yeah he said lay down like brothers then got sexual after. I don’t fancy him I’d prefer an alternative guy but I usually only like girls I think I was lonely and drunk and numb and it’s been a while since I’ve had a girl so yeah. I wasn’t happy about the situation really.
Yes he is an unsafe guy a little bit and I can’t stop cycling my thoughts and live in my own world. I feel I am not able to make my own choices I feel scared and alone and girls are quite scary to be around where I live.
Talk to your pdoc about the cycling thought meds will help. Meanwhile I tend to find projects are good therapy.they help keep your mind on something besides what you want to dwell on. A relationship may not be what you need now,i don’t know,but I find they are best when you are at your best. Being single is ok in my eyes. I hate that people always feel they have to be a couple just not fair to the single people that deserve a little more respect.
Can you move to another place and try to find other people to socialise with.
Some times one can feel attacked some how no matter where one moves to.
Maybe you could live by your self in your own place.
Can be difficult to afford in person for some of us though.
Some think it is better to be alone than to be with people that are bad to and for you.
If you are a bit afraid of this man it can be difficult to speak up and say you do not want to have sex with him again.
Maybe you can stop being with him if you feel uncomfortable with him.
Some times it can feel difficult to find support and people one can be with and things are as they are but keep the faith n hope about it.
That One day you can be with woman and men who are nice n good to and for you and who you can enjoy spending time with and even share a laugh with and feel happy to meet them.
I feel a bit “spiritually attacked” i think cause people have lied about me and stolen from me perhaps etc but i know who i am .
Is there any one at all you can ask for help or feel support from ?
It might be a situation you want to get out of.
and it may be possible to get out of it in near future.
I dont know what social net work you have or what financial situation etc or what you feel capable and “up to” in form of taking ation to change situation.
I can relate to some of what you are saying .
and having sex with some one one does not want to have sex with .
for me others may of been in my body and others in there body…but it was not my will nor was it good for my body except once with one man.
Hope things get better for you soon.
I’m sorry. He took advantage of you and that is not right. Nobody should ever make you feel pressured into doing something you don’t want to do. If he was willing to do that, he clearly wasn’t taking your thoughts and feelings into account.
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U should know the answer to ur sexuality, if you don’t then maybe some soul searching. And yea ive learned to just try not to care about others peoples opinions or judgements. I wear headphones when i leave my apartment too
I don’t think you’re bi, I sometimes think I might be. I guess I’ll never find out hopefully, I’d rather be straight and normal.
Yeah your right there, well I used to have gay delusions and anxietys when in relationships with girls
I used to have inner voices saying things on sexuality was awful but I never was attracted to guys at all strange right?
I feel I was taken advantage of really girls used to do the same to me and take my money from me then leave me when I’m broke it induced psychosis when my gf left me I think.
If you had a gay experience that was forced upon you that definitely doesn’t make you bi…just like if a gay person was forced by a straight person to do something that doesn’t make them straight…
You’re bi if you’re attracted to boys and girls. Simple as that!
Current feelings… sexually unsatisfied 
man it’s whatever. I find pretty much everyone attractive… not sexually… that’s something that is only really triggered by women. I see a lot of endear-able traits across most people…