Compulsion of self harming?

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So I read a post on OCD and I remembered how some said my obsessive homicidal thoughts were possibly due to harm OCD. And where there is obsessions in OCD, there are also compulsions.

Now what I want to know is, if my obsession is horrible thoughts about harming my husband, is my trying to stop it by cutting myself instead, a form of compulsion?

It’s Alien’s thoughts placed in my head and I feel like I can only shut him up (when it gets bad) by scratching a line…

I get these obsessive inserted thoughts daily but fortunately not so severe. most days I can cope. But just want to know is self harm a form of compulsion.

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I was known for self harm for years due to (what i think a mis dx of EUPD).

Just remember that you are always in control. The only person “scratching a line” is you - and you got nobody to blame but yourself. Not your husband, or anyone else. YOU.

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Lucifer placed homicidal thoughts
in the morning,
to exterminate
my grandma/Trotsky

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So how is it explained? Is it a compulsion? Psychosis? Borderline? Depression? All of them?

Dunno maybe I should ask myself but it’s hard…

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@EarthChild

Do you think its a good idea to give a symptom/intrusive thoughts a name?

I would think that would make it harder for you to realize you are having symptoms.

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I thought in giving it a name I’d be able to realise it’s not something normal. As it is, when I “scratch a line” on myself, it makes me feel much better about my husband, like I’m defending him against Alien who wants me to hurt him and I don’t want to so I am a scapegoat and I don’t mind as long as my husband is safe from me and Alien

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Oh i see, that makes sense.

Hmmm I don’t understand OCD much, But I do understand intrusive thoughts. They are hard to manage.

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I don’t know if I have OCD though. I wasn’t diagnosed with it, only sza and anxiety

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Over the last few years I’ve been thinking that taking the meds amount as much to self-harming as doing other kinds of harm to yourself.

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Its a conpulsion if you think by doing that behavior you will stop the feared outcome.

Or are you punishing yourself?

Cutting isnt always a borderline thing as much as some drs seem to think.

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From my ocd workbook. These are classic ocd compulsions.
Thats how i learned about ocd more from an ocd workbook my therapist told me to get.

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This is the book i got
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