I feel a bit obsessive. Maybe it’s the evil spirit…I think of the knife. Even tried scratch last night, just one. It’s like I’m drawn to it. Don’t know why. Keep on thinking of stabbing a mouse or rat, thinking if I had a cat they could catch one for me. What is wrong with me? I feel like I’m becoming wicked. Like the spirit is winning…
Heard voices yesterday morning, first time in two weeks. Alien said “Kill kill” over and over, telling me I’m evil b***h. Fortunately he went away after I got gradually drawn to my book.
Maybe it’s the lack of meds. Tuesday I see my pdoc again and I’m glad. Because the knife obsession is both worrying and fascinating me.
Sorry if my post was intense. Just wanted to share.
Added a trigger warning tag. I’m sorry your suffering but it’s good you talk to shrink soon. Don’t suffer in silence. Let them know you need some help. It’s awefully hard to do it alone!
@Daze is silenced for the night. Not sure the intent there but would hope it was just a silly decision. Apologies peeps. Lets keep civil and supportive for the punter.