In my experience I’ve gone through two phases: when I wanted to have supernatural ESP communication with the people and with spirits, and when I could not care less about whatever this non sense was telling me any more.
But at first I wanted it to keep happening because I had no meaning in my my life. This gave me meaning and even purpose which is saying that things were very low for me in those days.
Then I couldn’t get away from it, but even though it was a horror show causing me CPTSD, I was still fascinated with this possibility of it being something ESP or supernatural which is a mistake.
My mind was so overdeveloped that way to see, think, and communicate in that kind of paradigm that I knew that I had to escape it in this life time, and I chose to overhaul my brain with every skill and knowledge I could force into my brain with hard work. I followed the Christian Tenants, the Law, work ethics, athletic ethics, critical thinking ethics, scientific ethics, research and think ethics etc. I knew that if I had changed my brain to become the way it was, I had to change it into something else in order for it to recruit brain neurons from the false delusional paradigm I found myself in to become used for an objective and universally coherent paradigm which I never had a chance to make in myself before in my life. Everyone whether sz or not should do this, and since I did this, I am that much farther ahead of most people to be perfectly honest with you all.
COMPARTMENTALIZING
The way sz looks to me is there are characters that are others, and there are reactions in my that are emotional. I do not know why the emotional reactions happen, but the most common ones are disgust and fear. They are reactions to the most common sentiments of the “others” which usually are harassing, fear mongering, or completely disgusting me. There are other kinds of “others” I experience, but meanies and bullies are the most common, so I have the CPTSD which kicks in hard when I’m around other people or I even hear other people.
But to look at this sz the way most of us do as there is “you” as in the other characters we experience which bully us etc, and there is me the one being bullied or offended…this is the wrong way to look at it.
The me and the you way of looking at sz is wrong, and this suggest the concise definition of the word schizophrenia which is split personality because the others are my brain’s cognitive faculties as well as the sense of myself which of course are my brain’s cognitive faculties.
There is no them and me, but my brain works in a way that it produces thoughts in the sense that it is “them” and then it reacts in a sense of “me myself.” That is a split personality to the concise psychological and philosophical definition of what a personality is. I’m a behaviorist by profession, but I’m not a psychiatrist or psychologist…not even close.
When I experience the “others” I don’t want to, and I don’t care what they say. They are simpleton idiotic ideas, and I have heard them over and over day in and day out for almost half of my life. lol the fascination is long gone.
Not even the reaction is seems like me any more. The reaction seems like someone else now too. It seems like all of the emotional reactions which really are the problem of sz not the voices…it seems like these reactions are an “other” two. You see I don’t care, and I’m very aware and secure in the sense that what they are saying or doing to me means nothing to me, so to me sz seems like a battle between:
“Others”
&
“Emotional Others”
It’s as if very dim and emotional people are somehow inside of my body reacting like nit wit idiots to meaningless outbursts from nit wit idiots, and they have someone gain control of how I feel and thus what I do.
Always remember that it is not the voices that we experience that are the problem with sz. It is the involuntary, emotional reaction and distraction to the stream of thought that is the problem. Also when people believe they are learning about truth and wisdom from voices, 99.9% of the time it is false information and pseudo memories they are making of things that never happened. To the contrary once in a while the voices have had a great idea, but even fools have a great idea once in a while. It’s just the roll of the dice by random chance is all.
3 COMPARTMENTS
So it’s 3 compartments: Me, the Emotional Others, and the Others.
As long as I realize it’s those two hassling with each other, then I’m fine, and my mind seems to make sense. But when I forget that, and I sort of sink into or fall for the emotional reaction to the dumb voices that my emotional “others” sense, then that’s when I get spun out. That’s the sz kicking back in.
3 Three Compartments to Normies
When people talk to another person, there is a compartment in the brain that compensates and represents for the other person. Therefore your brain has 2 personalities. There is no telepathy. There is just a representation that the brain makes of the other person, and there is a representation of yourself.
When there is more than one person, and they talk to you and two each other, then there is are more than one compartments to represent them, and people tend to simplify it with simply the self compartment and the “in” compartment. The “in” compartment is just what is the over all group thinking as in “group think.” Anything that is not “in” to that social scene is “out.”
When I grew up, all I learned was 2 compartments. I did not learn 3 compartments or the in compartment. I think that when I wanted to be ESP really bad and talk to supernaturals, I warped my brain. I’m not saying that this was ever real, but I made it become real, and in the process of making believe my brain was an antennae receive communication from others in the form of thoughts, emotions, words, and even psychical signs it messed up the compartments of personalities my brain would ordinarily think.
Remember that to every sz the first concept they learned by was: “is what I’m thinking and feeling someone else’s thoughts communicating to me?” Once you start learning to talk to your thoughts and feelings like that, you have fallen down the rabbit hole.
Didn’t edit this. Don’t have time.