When I was younger (age 16-19 approximately) I had a delusion that there was a group of scientists all wearing clown masks who were putting parasite eggs into my food and water. This delusion began because I had a parasitic worm infection that my doctor thought I got from undercooked food at my school or a restaurant. So for about three years, I was so CONVINCED that these scientists dressed as clowns were putting parasites into my food, that I would not eat or drink anything unless I watched my mom prepare it from scratch or if I broke the seal on the packaging myself. I wouldn’t put my food or drinks down until I was finished either. It was an exhausting way to live. With therapy, I was able to get over it. Well if you live in America, you’ve probably heard of people dressing up as clowns and chasing people with knives, trying to lure kids into the woods, etc. Now I’m beginning to get these feelings again. That the clowns are really here for me, that they want to get me again. I’ve stopped walking outside at night alone, I’ve started carrying mace again, and a couple of times, I’ve had to make sure I checked the seals on my food before I ate it. My fiancé is worried about me and I’m getting a lot more paranoid than I’m comfortable with. I think the fact that I’m pregnant isn’t helping because my hormones are all out of whack and I’m emotionally fragile to begin with. I’m going to talk to my therapist about it before it gets out of hand and I start obsessing over clown scientists again.
I’m sorry. The clowns are just dumb kids who think they’re being funny. But i know that probably doesn’t make you feel any better.
It makes me feel better when I hear it coming from someone else with a mental illness. When the normies say it (my fiancé included) I just freak out and yell “OF COURSE YOU WOULD SAY THAT!!” But coming from someone like me, it means more
Our brains come up with the strangest things sometimes. I once thought Starburst wrappers could shield my brain from mind control devices. It was a very deeply held belief.
I think we might be the most interesting group of people on the planet. Never a dull moment inside our heads haha
I’m sorry that it is like that for you. I had parasite delusions as well. Well… I do have parasite delusions. I often believe there is a parasite in me that controls my life. Anyway, I hope these thoughts will go away for you when this clown fad is over.
Have they passed a Creepy Clown ordinance? I don’t think it’s even a misdemeanor most places. It’s extremely common in Washington D.C. … they call themselves a Congress or something … ;-- )
Thank you. I’m sorry you deal with parasite delusions too. There’s nothing freakier than feeling like there’s something living inside you >_< I hope we both get over our delusions real soon and breathe easy
I know my city has told everyone that no one is allowed to dress up as a clown on Halloween. I don’t know what else they plan to do about it. Some citizens are threatening to handle it vigilante style
I know that all too well.
That craze has taken off here in Australia too.
Like most fads, I don’t know much about it. All i know is that I’ll probably carry a knife with me until it’s over with.
Sorry a bunch of idiotic try hards has triggered you. I feel for you but do try to remember that these morons don’t have the brains to harm you like your delusion says they will.
I really feel for you though. Our deputy prime minister is a trigger for one of my "delusions ". My sister triggers the other one.
Defiantly talk it through with your doctors. Hopefully your midwife is supportive and knowledgeable with the illness also and worth talking through with her if she is. Supplements aren’t a cure but do take the edge of symptoms most of them will not harm the baby. So naturopathy is one option. (((hugs))) hope things settle down soon.
I’m sorry you’re dealing with this delusion. I have a completely different but enduring delusion. I know how hard it is. You can’t just shut it off. I certainly wish you the best.
Thanks for the support. I think delusions are the worst part of SZ for me. I can’t believe they’re in Australia too. I carry a can of mace just in case I come up to one. I really do hope this blows over soon.
I’m definitely talking about this with my therapist. And I’m gonna make an appointment with my obgyn to talk to her about how to keep my stress level down. She knows about my SZ so she’s working with me about how to deal with my symptoms. My fiancé is really worried about me and the baby so I’m gonna talk to my doctor about supplements. I used to take them and they helped me so I really should start taking them again anyway.
Thanks. Luckily the police in my area are good and they know what they’re doing and they’re cracking down on this clown thing. That makes me feel much safer
Never fear! Batman will protect you!
I heard one of these clowns was shot…running at the wrong one with a knife…maybe this will curb the enthusiasm of playing creepy clown for no reason…
I sure hope so. I don’t feel bad for any of them who get shot. Clown bastards 
I don’t get the goal…is it just to scare people…if so waiting in often secluded spots for people to scare…seems like their mostly just hiding in the bushes for extended periods of time…so maybe they just wanna hang out in the woods and are deeply offended when someone interferes with their tree time…