Im 16 about 6 months ago i started to notice my psychosis but am starting to realize that i have had it all my life and just havent noticed because i thought nothing of my hallucinations. I have lots of memories of my child hood that I remember very well, My earliest memory of it was when i was about 4 I remembered waking up really early in bed with my mam and dad and hearing a voice of a man talking to me I remember waking my mam up and asking whos that talking she just said the weather man and went back to sleep. I also remember when i was about 9 sitting in my room in the dark and looking at the darkness and id vividly see cartoons floating around. I also used to get alot of eye floaters i dont know if they have anything to do with hallucinations i also have always seen little circles in my vision that float around. I always confused dreams with reality now and as a child I remember seeing this big goat man in the window i dont know weather it was a hallucination or a dream. Ive also always been paranoid but not badly paranoid id always be afraid walking past people or especially as a kid to walk off my road on my own incase someone tried to hurt me. Ive also always been slightly delusional thinking ive been microchipped when i was about 7-8 and then a bit older i started thinking and still kindve do think people are watching me especially in the mirror of the bathroom, always people whos opinion of me that i care about like girlfriends parents or a girl i like I remember when i was 11 i wouldnt play love songs incase the girl i liked was watching me and thought i was thinking about her while i was listening to them ive had other hallucinations and delusions as a child theyre just some examples just wondering if youse think this sounds like childhood onset schizophrenia or if its some other psychotic disorder
Im the same age as you and I’ve had similar experiences as a kid, like I use to see cowboys watching me sleep. I do however have schizophrenia, I broke last year. My suggestion is don’t self diagnose and talk to an psychartist.
Hi! My schizophrenia started in a very similar way. At first, it just seemed like I was a kid with a very active imagination, but then it became apparent there was something else going on.
These specific things are normal human things, and not signs of psychosis, so don’t be alarmed if they don’t go away with treatment. Everyone gets these.
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Hi, I had a similar pattern growing up as well! Welcome to the forum.
Have you told your parents about your hallucinations and delusions? If not, I think it’s a good idea to do so, and hopefully they’ll be supportive and have you seen by a psychiatrist who can help you.
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From what I understand, you are talking about the distant past. I know you are making connections, but in a way it’s not healthy to unless you talk to a therapist and they can make sense of your memories. Tell your parents you want to talk to someone, and they will help you find someone. It’s good you realize all this. I didn’t know what was going on with me, and my mom paid me to see a lady just to talk. I was your age, and afraid to see a counselor. No diagnosis was made or medication was prescribed until those symptoms people saw in me made me fall into a complete break from reality. It’s sad to say, but there is no way to predict schizophrenia. When my mind finally had enough of hallucinating a little through out childhood, I basically get to a point where I was hearing voices every day where the voices got louder and louder. Then I saw a psychiatrist in crises, and was put on medicine. The medicine did not touch the symptoms at all. Now it’s 10 years later and it lowered my symptoms. Don’t mean to scare you, just talk to a therapist. They will assess you.
No but i am planning to soon i want to go to the doctor on my own first and see what the doctor says and then tell them
Yeah i know i was talking about my childhood i was just talking about that to show what my hallucinations and delusions were like now my hallucinations have gotten worse in the past few months i see alot of things like halos around people and walls warping and melting sometimes i see people not regularly tho my other symptoms like anger social withdrawal stuff like that have also gotten worse im planning on going to a doctor soon and talking about it and hopefully get some councling and medication if needed before it starts to get even worse
@Daragh12 it’s good that you’re planning to talk to a doctor. Do you have an appointment scheduled yet?
Also, I don’t know if you are doing any recreational drugs, but if you are, you should stop. If you’re not, stay away from them. Especially pot. It’s not a major risk to most people, but in people prone to psychosis, it can trigger really bad episodes. Your brain is still developing, and it needs to develop in a healthy way.
Ok, I wish you the best of luck 
Thank you @Winterblues
@Ninjastar i dont have an appointment yet im saving up the money for the appointment first i should have it all in a week or two and no i dont do any drugs i smoked weed once but that just gave me depersonalization and deprealization
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