The last thing I want is to end up in prison or some type of phony. I guess it really doesn’t matter if I live a fulfilling life or not. I just don’t want to let my family down. I kinda did when I went off meds before. I really don’t want to do something stupid. Does anyone know the odds of keeping your nose clean the rest of your life with schizoaffective disorder? I did try to kill myself before because I was caught stealing and basically can’t deal with reality.
What are my odds of living a life where I don’t end up in prison and feel like an okay person?
I guess I am a phony. I said I played basketball in college once. I did play intermirals before. I’ve always blamed it on mind control. I have no idea why I said it. I think about it a lot.