I can and it’s weird because the way I feel now is not at all what I thought schizophrenia would feel like before I suffered enough symptom to suspect I had it. Any one else?
What are your presymptomatic memories?
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I remember feeling blessedly relaxed and blessedly good. I remember going to school and interacting with others and not feeling anxiety. There were some bad things going on at that time, but interacting with my peers was so much easier.
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being in college and being really social. I was always a bit different though…I was also hypersexual.
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It’s weird to think about. I think I was always sz but before it became noticeable it just seemed like I was shy or different. Now I can look back and realize that those traits were probably symptoms that weren’t bad enough to be red flags, but that was a time when they were so mild and infrequent that I could almost pass for typical. Good times. Good times.
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I can’t remember a time before the psychosis as I’ve always had symptoms. I can remember before the depression though and before the ptsd. I was a very different person…before depression I was sociable without any effort, I was quite arrogant as well…depression really taught me empathy and kindness. I don’t know if I can explain how exactly it did that but it did. Also my social skills have never really been the same after that. I wonder if that was my true prodromal phase…dunno…
Before the ptsd/trauma I was very chill, almost impossible to make me mad, not easy to stress out, just very laid back. After I became this rageful and extremely anxious person. I also lost confidence in myself and my self esteem was ruined.
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I’ve only had problems with psychosis recently, but I’ve had problems with depression since I was 12 and before that, I had issues with learning disabilities. So, I don’t think I ever felt normal or like I fit in. I guess I used to at least try. Now I only hang out with a few people and don’t make much of an effort to meet new people.
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I was in the sandbox and the teacher called us in to finger paint. Then we all sat together and ate our peanut butter and jelly sandwiches and drank our stupid little boxes of milk.
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Not really. I remember strange behavior and thoughts back in primarty school. Always was a little different!
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I was an odd child also prone to depression and anxiety. And very rebellious as I got older. I came from a highly religious family who swept anything that woild look bad on them under the carpet. When I moved to Banff I was totally psychotic and very manic but even the Dr assumed it was the drugs. They were plentiful. So I was showing signs many years before diagnosis
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Sure, I was more social and I was able to study and play for many hours while having fun. 
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I was stoned most of the time writing songs nobody wanted to hear. Wasting time and brain cells. Had a job working 60 hrs a week. Quit my job before I got a chance to weld now I gotta take what I learned n go to welding school. I would already be welding and making bank.
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My symptoms have affected me since early childhood.
They have influenced my entire arc of development and life.
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