It’s incredibly frustrating. Whenever I think I’ve recovered it rears it’s ugly head again and again.
If your working it’s like working TWO full time jobs. One to make money that’s 40hrs a week and one that’s 168hrs a week that your constantly monitoring your own brain
Paranoia: thinking everybody is a threat thus causing a constant state of fear and mistrust. You can imagine how this would get in the way of normal interactions with people.
It is like being battered by mindstorms, mental agony
When I was psychotic it seemed to me that I was the reasonable party, and everyone else was being unreasonable. I think a lot of sz’s feel that way when they’re psychotic. I felt like I was being attacked, and I would do or say things to try to scare people away from me. In my case, I wasn’t on the beam, and I didn’t know I wasn’t on the beam, because I wasn’t on the beam.