I knew I was suffering from sz when I was psychotic but I still acted on my delusions/ paranoia. The delusions held power and the knowledge I had sz had no power.
I think of it kind of like a battle between intuition and reason, or feelings and thought, or so many other competing mental functions. The delusion defeated the insight almost every time.
I know I’m getting to this thread late but can I just say that I’m definitely not a better person because I spent 5 unmedicated months in a closet with a toilet in it.
That doesn’t make you better, especially if you have sz. It just creates PTSD and throws it into the mix.
Love all you guys, don’t mean any disrespect, just really wanted to mention it.
Good luck @Crystal-Cotton , the only advice I have is very good advice, agree to take medication and don’t miss a dose! That’s how I got better and avoided going back to that awful place.
I believe what she is referring to is lacking insight about her delusions. If you have insight into a delusion you either realize that is a delusion or at least half believe it to be.
" Anosognosia , also called “lack of insight,” is a symptom of severe mental illness experienced by some that impairs a person’s ability to understand and perceive his or her illness. It is the single largest reason why people with schizophrenia or bipolar disorder refuse medications or do not seek treatment."
You can have full insight but if you do, you’re not delusional. You can have some insight into delusions, and recognize that others believe something else and even that they might not be true, but you have to believe in them for them to be delusions, and if you know they’re delusions, you by definition know they aren’t real, and they’re not delusions.
But you don’t need delusions to have schizophrenia. And you can get better and gain insight into them and still have schizophrenia.
Only time I lost all insight was when I realized I was being strapped on on a stretcher with a belt on the street and was taken to the hospital and got injected with some tranquilizers and lost my memory.
I think that was my true manic episode… I didn’t stop talking and I was delusional and screaming and sexually Inappropriate to the police and the medics…