Sometimes yes, sometimes no. I think it is a case by case basis.
In my case I could always tell a hallucination from reality. I also knew that from a clinical point of view my delusion would be considered a false belief. My current pdoc specifically said he was glad I had insight into my illness after talking to him. Nonetheless, it all seemed like this stuff was really happening to me at the time even though no one could hear my voices or see what I saw or felt what I felt or thought what I thought. Itâs all gone now since being on meds.
Even when I was psychotic I knew who I was, where I was, what was going on in the world, etc⌠I wasnât absent from reality.
If a professional told you they were delusions and put you on antipsychotics you can trust that you were delusional. We canât change your diagnosis. Nor can we diagnose you today and tell you if you are psychotic on not. We arenât in your head and we arenât trained professionals.
I donât. I wish I could make you feel better. But the system wants to make you accountable and to really regret what you have done and be remorseful and learn from your mistake.
If someone had threatened your life and really scared you and made you fear for your safety you would want them to be held accountable and to learn their lesson so they wouldnât keep doing it.
Look weâve all gotten in to trouble in our lives, weâve all made mistakes and had consequences. Itâs part of growing and learning. No one is perfect. Youâre going to get through this itâs going to be ok. Whatever the punishment is, you can handle it and youâll be a better stronger person because of it.
To respond to the main question: I think it is a difficul question. I was told by a psychiatrist 1,5 years ago that I was psychotic, so at least I knew that other would considder me to be so. I canât remember if I agreed, I donât think so not to begin with. I regonised that that was the opinion of my psychiatrist, but I didnât think I was psychotic.