Yeah dude. I only made a fool of myself a few times. Most of the time I knew it was better to just not talk about what was going on. Everyone was telepathic and no one talked about it. That shits still happening but I’m just gonna start talking like it’s not. I’m so ready to be done with this ■■■■.
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I can’t help you there I can’t rationalize what God does and doesn’t do sorry.
Maybe he was busy somewhere else ever considered that?
I can’t believe some people have to be all in or all out about their beliefs about God.
Seriously think about how many people he deals with.
I wish I had only made a fool out of myself and not Traumatised my whole family for a year.
My ■■■■ was uncontrollable I had 100% lost contact with reality. Full blown manic psychosis. it was pretty scary
My brothers were afraid to go near me for weeks. And my mom would cry every night for a couple months. It was pretty nasty stuff.
I take offense to that dude. That’s like when people say to someone that turns his back on god . “Oh well maybe he didn’t truly believe”
■■■■ that horseshit
Would god really be busy for 6 months? All 24 hours a day? HAH
I’m sorry you went through that.
At least you have a reference point in your non belief some don’t even have that.
You know, now you are aware that you aren’t Jesus because you don’t believe in that stuff.
I’m not trying to convince you of God either man.
Damn dude that sucks. My family were all in tears that first night I was in the hospital. I was smiling though. I had lived. ■■■■ was crazy. Being in there really did make me feel safe, like it was where I belonged. I thought it was a permanent thing. It’s crazy dude the psychotic break takes place so quickly and then everything is up in the air. I knew I was a loon and needed to be isolated from people for a while.
Well I’m happy your alive Bryan . You get to continue the journey with us
It’s ok man, it’s a touchy subject for me.
I have to admit that you guys are in a different league than me because I’ve never been hospitalized even though maybe I should have been.
So I apologize if I seem insensitive
I’m in one of those hyper things now I mean maybe I am a angel here to witness…or maybe not.
I havnt been hospitalized either. My parents are very Christian and didn’t want to take me but they almost did when the next morning I still thought people were being healed when they were crying.
Then later in the afternoon I somehow snapped out of it and then I hear the devil in my head terrorising me for the next few months…I worked full time with that crap going on in my head and seeing random stuff. I don’t how I did it.
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It’s good dude. It’s always good to see someone handling mental illness like a champ.
Yeah I’m pretty happy I’m alive at this point. Glad I have a chance to make up for all the years wasted chasing a high slowly developing this illness. Can’t wait for summer I think it’ll really give me a chance to make new memories. Most of the suicide psychosis stuff happened in summer. I want to live that ■■■■ down. Last summer I was practically a vegetable.
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At least you did it and you learned from it that’s what matters.
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Yeah i feel I’ve come out stronger after it all. Although I was very bitter and angry about it for a couple years. I wish it had stopped there though lol
I know where you are coming from I go through that bitterness everyday.
I keep away from people so they don’t see it but I’ll get to where are eventually
Yeah dude I look back at the semester of school i attended and the couple months I was delivering pizzas and I get the same feeling. How the ■■■■ did I do it. Obviously I ended up quiting both but I got a 4.0 that semester and saved a couple grand from working. I do remember what it was like though. Absolute mental chaos. Non stop telepathy. Completely delusional. Man yeah the delivery driving thing was super tough with that ■■■■ going on. I’ve kind of found some breathing room at this point within the telepathic interjections. ■■■■ man if that ■■■■ is real it’s one of the cruelest things they could do to someone.
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Just think when one day our symptoms cease. Our Productivity will be so good
They are not real though whether it’s drugs, trauma or whatever it comes down to crossed wiring.
Thanks man, you’d be surprised how hard it is to find statements like that when I need them most. I’m just to the point now where I’m not gonna believe it’s real anymore. I’ve entertained it long enough.
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Dude I’ll be so at peace. Productivity would come second. I’d have to find a job.
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