I know I shouldn’t talk about it there… I know I shouldn’t share these bad feelings non stop. Atleast, most of the people don’t give a sh** about breakups. I am being childish.
From the beginning- I feel ■■■■■■. I want to die at the moment. I know there’s no such thing ‘as the one’, but I still believe this person was meant to be with me. And it’s stupid! Maybe I am delusional.
I really putted lots of effort into this relationship - maybe I had to put even more effort.
It hurts. A lot. I am quite not sure how this person was so fake, that made me believe he is in love.
The whole argument was nonsnensical, but the fact is he is for a week not texting me, I am also not texting.
We were spending every evening and every night together, in fact every possible minute we spent together. but in fact… maybe he was just using me?
I will repeat, but it def hurts. If he only played with me.
It’s literally sad. I feel like a child though there are way worse things than breakups, I mean there are illnesses, war, deaths. I feel so egoistic that I simply feel so sad without him. It’s like… maybe I am obsessive? 
The whole thing is new to me. I really start to believe I was very in love. Though, I never felt so deep sadness for ages. Mostly male which appeared in my life never became so important to me.
I don’t know why I fell in love so much.
And in a stupid way. He probably doesn’t even feel the same
love hurts. It really hurts when it ends. I’m sorry you’re going through this. I know you’ll make it through the pain 
