I express my anger… In an educated manner so to speak. I don’t get angry a lot but I say what’s on my mind. I just can’t keep saying what’s on my mind every time something comes up, it gets exhausting. Either it’s their own issues, or their irresponsibility or their genuine lack of support.
Like, it was my birthday, and only one person didn’t make up an excuse to not go. One was working, all right no big deal, the other came up with a terrible headache (the one that asked if I’m angry), and the other could go. I reschedulled it to yesterday and then didn’t feel like it so I cancelled it, made up an excuse. No need to tell anyone that they were being bad friends, they know.
I’m not into conflict really, it triggers my symptoms so I avoid it. I tend to say things in a way people understand my frustration but don’t engage into unnecessary conflict. Or, I keep quiet if I feel it’s not going to be good for my mental health.
She’s just codependent. If I don’t talk to her for a few days she thinks I’m angry at her. I hate being on the other end of that. I tried helping her, she refused. She doesn’t want labels or treatments, she wants to dwell on her misery and I’m not into that.
I’m genuinely positive and disappointment is a constant in my life.