Been really paranoid lately especially at night. When I try to sleep I can feel someone watching me and planning to attack me. I hear noises of someone walking outside my window. I’m afraid all night long that someone is going to break in my house and kill me and my family. I’m taking my medication and I am sober but for some reason my paranoia doesn’t go away.
Any advice?
I have the same problem, and they doubled my seroquel. Still hasn’t helped much. And my fingertips are smoking now. I thought it would help more. It has been 3 days, but Nothing other than sedating feeling the first night. Now it is the same, maybe getting worse. I see the dr on Friday, so maybe something will change between now and then? The therapist thought I was a bit on the hypomanic side, but I don’t feel as such. I just am not sleeping much and voices keeping me up at night. Keep hearing people outside and pounding on wall at night. I haven’t told my therapist or doctor about it, just tell them voices are loud and keeping me awake. I don’t want to go to the hospital. I hate the hospital. They take all your rights away. They don’t listen. It would be nice to not have to ever sleep…
I feel the exact same way!!! I can’t sleep at night because of the voices and because of all the loud noises I hear outside. I haven’t told my therapist or doctor either. I also hate hospitals they aren’t pleasant and make things a lot more difficult.
I just know the minute I say something they will just want to put me in lockdown! I just don’t trust them really. It is hard enough going to appointments as it is, and my therapist was asking too many questions the last time…it makes me nervous. They keep saying don’t trust them, to not answer questions… I just got a really bad feeling that she might do something. I have to go to appointments to stay on the meds though. I just feel like they are going to try and make me go to the hospital soon. I just think the medication needs to be higher or something. I just feel like running away sometimes. They will always find me, though.
Exactly! They just don’t understand how it is! You really do want to get better but asking for help seems to risky cause you might be sent somewhere you don’t want to be. I hate that but I fight through it for the meds.
Me too. I hope my appointment on Friday ends well. It nice to find a person who experiences something similar, I feel like a black sheep or a square peg that doesn’t fit a lot of times. Though it would be nice also to not have to fight the paranoia as much or ever.
I don’t have a appointment till August 9th. And I don’t see my therapist for another week. I really hate my life. I wish I was a normal person with normal problems instead of this illness
My appointment was originally aug 3, but they bumped it up because I guess the med increase, I’m guessing the doc wants to see if it’s working out or not. I hope it starts working…I just know he is going to ask questions about what I am hearing and seeing/ experiencing and I don’t want to tell him.
I know you are worried that he/she will put you in the hospital if you tell them but wouldn’t it be best if you did to get better meds or and increase dosage
I guess, But they doubled my meds and still nothing. I’ve tried so many others and I get akathisia everytime I try something new. So seroquel is it. They had me on a low dose of 150 for a few months because I cannot tolerate medication very well…and the newer meds are more prone to cause akathisia. So now on 300mg plus an additional 25-50 mg dose as needed. Still awake. Last night I stared at the wall, the ceiling, the tv that was off, listened to music, ate a snack and nothing helped. Im not tired either
Sorry your going through all that. I actually ended up turning off my phone to try and get some rest. I only slept for two outs though. And now I have to do a long drive to the airport…I’m not ready
I put my phone on the charger, and eventually fell asleep around 5 am. Kept waking up though many times. Not sure how much sleep I got. Laid in bed awake for couple hours before getting up. I’m guessing 4 hours maybe 5. It’s better than 3 hours or 2, but still not optimal. I try to shoot for 8-9 hours. I felt kinda crappy when I got up.
Have you ever thought of it as forgotten crime and punishment? One can’t let up on the punishment if one has forgotten the crime. It’s a clever form of self hate. There is no substitute for love.
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