Let’s say I’m walking to the store. I would feel as if the person driving past me is looking at me. looking at my walk. Judging me because I’m walking. Thinking less of me. When i get on the bus i try to squint my eyes . If I’m around men i deepen my voice to ensure it doesn’t crack. Females. I’ll save my ego.
Its just to much walking . The guy at the corner store today said he thinks something is wrong with me because how i walk. So i need to change how i walk to reduce anxiety.
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Same for me sometimes. don’t know if this is simplistic rationality, but once you understand emotions are internal, and not external, this has allowed me to not be feel this way.
Emotions are internal and not external
Cuts the thinking at its origins
Could be considered a deep manner of thinking, It’s like a story of mind of your settings with mental convictions , and you reacting to it with your reasoning like it was a present situation around you.
I used to be very self conscious when I was younger.
I used to have extremely obvious panic attacks. I would get a stiff neck and shake all over. Anyone looking at me could see I was an anxious wreck. People would then comment on my nervousness and stare at me even more. It’s a fu**ing nightmare to deal with. What I really needed was for people to NOT pay attention to me…but they did and it made it worse. I still get anxious and have panic attacks but they aren’t as bad as they were when I was younger, thank God.
I get very self contious too. Everytime people look at me even a quick glance I feel like they know something I don’t know that they know (?) And i get very paranoid and act more odd. I do walk unusually and I try not to but often I feel weird when I try to correct it like I’m more awkward like I’m trying too hard. I read it’s something that SZ sometimes tend to do I walk or stand unusually.
I get very self conscious when I’m around people. I don’t what is worse, if I’m around people I know (i.e. family) or strangers. If I thought about it, I think strangers maybe because they don’t know me or my health issues. They see an obese 35 year old female with bad teeth. Anytime someone I don’t know looks at me or if I hear people whispering and laughing I assume its at me. I try to ignore the feeling but it always comes up no matter what situation I’m in. Sometimes I feel like I can tell what others are thinking, like thought-broadcasting or telepathy but I know that isn’t real. I guess that is why I don’t venture outside much, unless I have to go or I’m with my parents. I even have been getting nervous having delivery people come up to the apartment.
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