We have guests here .
Some of My boyfriends family are here for a couple of days.
His friends come by almost every day but that’s usually coffee.
I appreciate that my man does not get angry and nasty with /to me.
I go mute and sometimes I can say something.
I truly suffer around most people.
Specially dinners.
They had dinner together but I told my bf I rather sit in another room because it is too difficult.
How am o going to do this with his parents I do not know.
I have a little space I go to.
I am so sorry but I suffer and I try to endure and be polite.
It does not mean that I do not like them ,I just can’t stand them even if they are people I like.
I hope my bf will understand and be patient with me and not break up with me because of it .
I do not know what to do about it in long run but I try keeping to my space and avoiding.
It feels like I am being strangled or have a tight collar around my throats neck.
I am used to being alone so much.
I love being around my bf but I do not know what to do in long term.
So thankful to my bf for not being angry and nasty about it.
Instead he supports and helps me.
Blessed he be.
I do not mean to be rude.
I suffer having dinner with my family too.
I do not fit in and my body stiffens and goes wierd .
How do you guys go with dinners?
When it is just my bf and I is good but with others it is really difficult.
I could eat with woman that raised me but not rest iof family.