I am so glad to never be in a sexual relationship again. The thought of it is so utterly disgusting.
When i was young i was very promiscuous. I was very manic.
I had a 4 year relationship after my marriage that was very abusive. I think that is probably what has caused me to never want to be intimate again
I have a libido and fantasies, but the thought of me having sex or a relationship just doesn’t seem possible.
Same with me too I’ve never wanted to have sex with anyone ever. My crushes (and I’ve had many over the years) didn’t even involve fantasies of kissing, just of being together, holding hands, getting married, cutesy stuff. I’ve never looked at a person and been like dang I want to have sex with them, even before my tactile stuff started. That’s why it’s confusing to me. What’s more confusing is I can get off to porn and fantasies of sexual things but the idea of actually participating in these things holds no attraction to me whatsoever.
Sometimes my friends have these in depth discussions about their sexuality and how they figured out they were bi/gay/whatever they were and I’m always quiet because I feel like mine is just this big mess of confusing that doesn’t have or really need a label. Asexuality is a very simple way of putting it and to be even simpler I just say straight as I technically am. (Though I’ve also gotten off to girls before…but have no romantic attraction to them or interest in being with a girl in that way. So that just adds to the confusion)
I just hate all of it really.
Also want to add that I am surprised at how many other people on here feel the same about being asexual. Wonder if there is some sort of correlation.
The demons tell me that if I am with a guy I will ruin him. Because they got their bad energy mixed up with mine so if I were to sleep with a guy I would pass their bad energy onto him like a disease (a spiritual STD I guess) and he would be corrupted and his soul would start to rot. I am terrified of putting someone else through that.
I honestly think that the meds have a lot to do with it.
Risperidone has given me a very low libido in real life.
I have very little sexual interest since being placed on risperidone.
I wasn’t this way on Abilify.
Well you obviously aren’t asexual and you’re being driven by fear and not morals to abstain from sex.
Trust me , your “tactile” sensations are far more horrible and intruding than any volunteer sexual act.
I am not a sexual despite early menapause n drying up.
I can still enjoy it.
I have a great man and I want to appreciate him every day.
We can make love fantasticaly and have so much more with each other in sacred Union n intimacy
Love to us
Hahaha that’s what I be saying in my head to myself your funny bro😂
It’s been four years since my last relationship but i don’t care anymore about sex I had my fun back in the day Id even get women when I wasn’t in the rite state of mind and off meds it was easier to get women to hangout and stuff back then I just feel inadequate to approach women I feel like I got nothing to offer it’s like the older you get it’s like you have to have something to show for yourself like a good job or a degree plus all girls my age got kids an stuff
Idk if masterbation counts as being asexual
In my past relationship, I had a lot of problems because I was not ready to share in an intimate relationship. I wanted to love him more and appreciate him more, but my body wasn’t cooperating so it was difficult. I didn’t know why I didn’t want to really have sex. I was puzzled because, I wanted to love him more but I didn’t know how to do so. If you want, you could talk to your friends (and us here!) about it and ask for advice.
Some of my friends were dating so they were able to give advice- but if you decide that you don’t want to have sex, and if you don’t like sex, feel free to say no to your partner and I’m sure he/she/they will appreciate you just the way you are. And I think self-love is key, too. You are beautiful just the way you are! And I appreciate you and love you just the way you are.
Sending you love!
But that’s not the only reason I abstain. I also do because I don’t like the idea of anyone getting up in my business. Also because I find genitals very gross. I also don’t really feel sexual attraction to other people either men or women. But it is also because I get a very strong guttural fear when getting involved in those things that’s my body responding like it’s the tactile hallucinations.
However maybe it’s that fear that is shutting down the systems that would normally inhibit that disgust drive towards those things and activate the attraction drive. I forget if it’s the sympathetic or parasympathetic nervous system that’s responsible for sex things but if it’s the parasympathetic it would make total sense because it is being overridden by my sympathetic nervous system.
Thanks this made me think more on the issue.
Edit: the parasympathetic nervous system is responsible for sexual things so it does make sense
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