Now my tears get warmer… i cry for all this lost time… I lived like a prisoner for all this time. Few here had it so tough… i am afraid yes… i feel a bit better in the day, but i have all my issues in the evenings still… My brain and emotionnaly remained inactive too much… idk… i missed too much… its not a good prognosis, i get old…
Does these two decades mean that ill spent the same time in recovery? 
But yes, today i felt my soul, my brain got calmer for a few and it was good… but how to continue struggle now that i see the consenquences of my illness??? I dont even want to mention, that my body is screwed yp too from the passivity and this counts out there outside…
Give me strengt to continue struggling pls if you can… what a tragedy, yeap…
after two decades do you still get hallucinations or other positives?
You can still find peace and happiness if you search
I am functioning ok, but still lonely as fk
I never had hallucinations… i was just desperate and negative since kid… i think that i have some paranoia left maybe. And i have bunch of cognitive issues maybe. Ive made the mistake to switch meds for 8 years, which didnt help. Now, i am stuck with the zyprexa but my docs say i should pay efforts… i turned dumb maybe. I have social problems too… idk, its too much to recover on…
You will be fine , write on a paper each morning 5 things you are greatful for when you wake up…
Work with your dreams , write everything in journal…
Ask dreams for healing
Maybe it helps you never know
Its better than having been inactive for two decades spooky. Thats why i worry. I get paranoid even from the people on the tv, cause i just keep asking myself when ill integrate better the society, without being or feeling crazy. But i see you… the loneliness could be terrible too…
Try be happy as you are love yourself as you are forgive everyone and yourself … write on a paper for a month good things about life you will improve
I am inactive too a lot I just find some motivation and do something even it’s not big and encourage myself say to myself that I am doing good
Even after two decades of madness? I am very alone in this struggle… just my mom, one friend and thats all. I turned wild i guess. Idk how i am gonna to continue now that i see what ive done…
Me too I don’t have friends and just family…mom…
I feel very alone and isolation …
I find something to do like reading a book about positivity…
Yes our brain is dead we need to accept it but also don’t loose hope…
For change is always possible
Ok, thanks spooky… maybe this sexual assault on my person, when i was six years old, is a reason too for my madness… i am ill since kid. Thats why i have it bad. But now that i want to change, i have not much time left. I guess you are young no? This is good.
This is what it takes to make a difference.
Not too much time left?
Isn’t one minute of happines better than none?
The time goes the same for everyone… but still try to let go the past forgive everyone that has done bad to you… close this book… create vision for yourself that motivates you to live… think about positive results , positive outcomes it will create them you will start getting them as you think about them…don’t give up … you can create better future for yourself …
Are you isolated like me since thirty years? You would ask for more stabilization too after so much time. I am really tired to be crazy csummers. I dont want to be tough with you. But i even never had a boyfriend… and when nobody loves you since so much time, this is hard… but thank you for the message.
Yes, I was extremely isolated my first 21 years.
I never had a boyfriend until age 22 when I married the first one that asked- from ‘first’ date to married was in 5 months.
I still isolated myself until after age 49 when I divorced and married again all in the same year.
You will sit in isolation until you put one foot forward and walk out of it, and never look back.
Sorry, but it doesnt work that way here… i have still paranoia no matter what i do… i want to vomit from stress in the evenings for god sake! Some of you here should understand, that i dont have this shitty life cause i dont try… i survived from 30 years of isolation!!! I have my symptoms just thats all… i even dont know which food i like, its even worse for the partners. And the fault is that me and my brain were destroyed… my isolation is not my fault, sorry… if you think this then you couldnt understand me…
I just am tired from my sz. Its easy to say put one foot forward and walk… if this heals sz, we all wouldnt have been ill, no csummers? My psyche and body were destroyed… and i was just looking for support to continue trying… cause now, its just terribly difficult and i am basically very alone with this. If you could have had bf when you were 21 years old you werent like me. Me, i am a real patient who tries as ■■■■, but gets nausea from trying in the evenings. Then i want to be left alone. I was just wondering if it was my isolation who made the things so bad or tyeres the sz mostly…
Whatever tbh… i am alone again now. Cool, i am like this since 36 years .
If you are motivated, it won’t take 20 years to recover. Give it 3-10 years. I recovered almost fully in 7.