I always say “kill myself” when i become frustrated or ashamed about something ive done in the past. I often want to go for a walk on a railroad to see what happens. Anyone else? P.s. dont bother poating those dumb suicide line telephone numbers
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I am suicidal without meds or when on antidepressants.
The problem is I cant go back on antidepressants as they caused my biggest relapse
I’m always suicidal.
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When did you become suicidal? Since med change?
It could be bcz you stopped antidepressants and that your brain got used to them. Give it some time, if you still have suicidal thoughts after a month ask for a med change. Also tell your pdr now.
I had it much worse on risperidone, right now on haloperidol is not bad, but i keep thinking about it everyday.
For how long did this happen?
I started using lexapro like 5 years ago as mood booster and i got used to it. One time i tried to stop and i turned suicidal. Another time my psydoc at a hospital stopped after my first relapse and then I also turned suicidal. Now after my 2nd relapse they also stopped lexapro, but it was what caused my relapse so i cant go back to it. I just have suicidal thoughts, but im not really depressed
My aussie friend commit suicide.that affected me deeply.i don t care if i live or die.life is not so bad for now.but i m not the guy who wants to live masochistly whatever it cost.just my life is not so cruel enough right now.i m ok with my life so far.
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Isn’t there another antidepressant like Lexapro that they can prescribe?
My psydoc is on a holday until 28th september and i dont want some other doctor prescribing me meds. Antidepressants caused also my insomnia and panic attacks. Not sure i want tobmake this trade again. Maybe you are right, maybe i am just usrd to be on this med and it will pass away
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I feel suicidal quite often. It comes and goes. Sometimes things are too much for me…
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I started getting suicidal thoughts in 2005. I started getting them more often in 2015. Sometimes I want to die to escape this world but I’m too scared to ever kill myself.
Me too. I’m scared of what would happen on the other side…
Me too!
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I had it worse on risperidone too.
Yes.
I only feel this way because it feels like my situation may never improve.
I feel like I’m living a life sentence of pain.
I dislike drugs and the modern approach because it tells this part of you basically this: “You’re not right to feel that way.”.
Even if they don’t say this it is implied when they do things like, “Let’s focus on something positive about yourself instead.”. That essentially tells the part of you that feels sad and deep despair, “You’re wrong to feel that way.”. It doesn’t actually address what it is that makes us feel bad and steer us into the direction of relief and finding how to actually feel good from THAT place. Positive focus is just a bypass that leaves that deep wound to fester.
All I know is, if I try to feel positive I just wind up sinking low again and even exhausted. Because that part of me is constantly getting the message that I shouldn’t feel that way.
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I get these feelings as well the voices tell me to.
I don’t really deal with suicidal thinking but have at one point in time,
But i deal with like a lack of emotion kind of feeling, like I’m stale 24/7 that makes me not want to live.
My thinking is I’ve went through 10 years of this so minus well ride it out to the end,
Really need my life to change though.
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