This is a big topic for me but seems to be push to the wayside throughout my sons treatment for the past three years since his original psychotic break. Anosagnosia is the inability to recognize or be aware of your own symptoms were illness. It is NOT denial…this is different! This is a big topic because as you all know you can’t fix what is not broken. Cannot help someone who does not want to help themselves. Your reality is your reality, and nobody can tell you what your reality is even if it does not agree with 99% of population. Even if it is self-destructive or dangerous. Even if it puts you in harm’s way or others in harm’s way. Even if it keeps you from forming relationships that used to be the main focus in the pursuit of happiness. I’m just curious is there anyone in here that has experienced this in the peak of their psychosis and did you ever get through it? Did you ever gain insight? Did you ever thank God and your parents and your friends for helping you through that time where you could not see outside your own reality? Or were you always able to see your symptoms? This is important for me to know because I have been helping my son for the past 3 years, and I am wondering if I am ever going to see him again in the way we used to talk and trust. He just sees me now as if he’s drowning and I have a stick and I’m just pushing him down even further instead of throwing him a rope. That is the look in his eyes. That is how she looks at me. He just started on clozapine which is pretty much the last thing they can try to bring him out of his psychosis. Of course he denies hearing voices or paranoia or any other symptom although he sleeps with knives under his pillow and openly admits he is afraid of sharks attacking him in freshwater lakes etc.this is ”normal” he will talk to himself and reference someone that is not there while he is doing it. He will stay awake for days, restless, agitated, unsatisfied. Often laughs to himself… this is what I mean by still being in a psychosis but if you ask him he doesn’t recognize any of it as being abnormal. He is currently in the hospital involuntarily and has been there the past 8 months. He has a court date today and he called me and asked me to pick him up at the store after he gets released, but in all reality they are planning to sanction him for another hundred and eighty days. I feel so bad if I argue with him he gets angry and hangs up and thinks I am against him. So I just agree. Please help. My son is my best friend, and I wish to gain some insight from those who have experienced the same as him so that I know how to do what’s right for him, so that I can emphathize and advocate for him in the best way possible. Thank you.
Yeah I had this thought it was god then the voices said it was an evil god then I lost interest and started to not listen to them