An aura of "alone"?

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I’ve never had many friends, or really belonged to any one particular group.

When I was in a group of friends I was kind of on the outside edge, didn’t really get invited to things and after months of no contact, none have wondered why I do not contact them, nor do they try to contact me.

My family would rather deal with my wife than me, they like her better (yes they’ve said things to that effect).

Even on these forums I feel no one really had any kind of connection even though we are similar in some respects.

Is it possible that I exude an aura of wanting to be alone? Is that why no one but my wife has ever wanted to be close to me and really be in my life (save for 1 friend who I speak to every few months)?

This will pose a problem in future jobs, I seem to make fast friends but they are not really my friends at all. I will need to be able to build real connections with people in psychology, where is the switch to turn this off?

Things have not been well lately, feeling more and more “not okay”, blood draw on Friday(?) and pdoc soon.

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I think its very possible. Sometimes the way we look or act can keep people away. I’ve also had very few friends. I’ve never been close to any of them though.

People have told me that I seem lonely or lost. They tend to ask me if I’m ok a lot. I guess I just give off that kind of vibe.

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i give off a dont ■■■■ with me auror i dont want to do this but its a defence mechanism like in the animals world when cats “make themselves look big”
i never really fit in anywhere either and most of the time i dont mind much.
you dont have to have a lot of friens in my opinion keeping up with them makes me really anxious and panicky. and they just become a chore. LOL

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Everyone has a different face they put out to the world-until you get to know them. If it upsets you, I would ask the people you care about. Tell them how you feel. Hopefully you will get a pleasant answer!**