is it true? is that all we care about?
these days its all me me me me me and i want this and i want that
but do people think about anybody else or is it all about them?
i remember being a real grouch and i was pretty bad, well i was ill and i remember when i had this disease and i would be constantly internalizing and asking myself why and i didnt even care about anyone except numero uno and how i was going to cope with this and that and the paranoia,
it wasnt my fault but it was a symptom of this disease i guess and i’ll call this symptom ‘self internalization’ and i think it is actually something that might not be that well known as a symptom.
i like to think that i have wised up now and that it was the disease that made me that way because i wasnt like that deep down.
then i got on a good med and started thinking about others apart from myself, i think my doc was the first person to notice as i said to her ‘why dont you ever smile’ and the next time i seen her she tried to smile and i think she is a better happier person now since i said that, i also helped my gran before she died and visited her in the hospital and other things as well.
basically without that symptom of self internalization i am a much nicer, friendlier person, i help people as much as i can and i am not just thinking about myself all the time.
i am not trying to hurt anyone with this thread tho or say that they are a bad person i just wanted to point out through my own experience how this symptom affected me and how it can affect others too.
it is a very subjective disease a lot of the time and i think the more we try to think of others the more we are beating this disease.
its not just about us tho, i think this problem is world wide and if it wasnt like that the worl would be a much friendlier place.