I had my aggressive behaviour since kid. I ve always fighted against it but once i went to the act with one small dog of mine. And one another time, i hitted a bit bad one girl who called me ■■■■. So its hard to be schizophrenic, now i regret this. I knew some other schizophrenics and some of them were peaceful, not agressive… whatever.
Otherwise i suffered a lot those last days. I have mostly negative feelings and its tiring… i just want to feel joy finally, i want to feel my soul for god sake. Just to have a real smile sometimes. Do you think it can come with time? I wonder if meds are killing our positive emotions but in my case, i doubt it a bit. Lots of hugs people!!!
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I cannot relate to your rxperience… I was very peaceful since kid. I would rarely get mad, and when I did get mad, it passed quickly. Anyway, negative feelings - I don’t think it’s because of schizophrenia. It’s a personality trait… that’s why I had told you that probably you should try psychological counseling or psychotherapy or group therapy…
It’s just my opinion.
maybe that’s the reason why once they diagnosed me as borderline? yeah, my schizophrenic friends were never so ragy and irritable like me I find :(… Maybe I have bpd along with the schizophrenia. But I dont have hallucinations too.
Not every schizophrenic has hallucinations… Some have delusions or paranoia… For example, I only have negative symptoms.
But you must not mistake negative symptoms for negative feelings. They are different.
I have a lot of positivity in my mind, but I lack feelings completely. I can’t feel anger, hate, love, joy, desire, pleasure. Nothing.
On the other hand, negative feelings is when you are upset… and it’s treatable with therapy and life changes… 
I’m really a very laid back passive kind of guy.
I am non aggressive but can get angry when Manic.
I’m non aggressive during sz, but my mania makes me irritable and sometimes highly defensive and annoyed with people. However, once the mania spirals into psychosis I become a hermit hiding in places in the house where a sniper couldn’t get a clear shot.
During sz, I’m more like a hider, quarantining myself in my house, crouched over in the kitchen, hiding by the fridge.
I was a very shy, quiet and compliant child and young adult. But a lot of bad things have been done to me and now I’m angry, and it runs deep because I didn’t defend myself for so long.
Therapy helps. I have rage aside from schizophrenia. If people had been nicer, not abusive, I wouldn’t be so angry. It’s not an innate part of me. I’m naturally pretty mellow and sweet.