Now everytime I have an attack, I feel the urge to come here and tell someone. Gah!! It’s happening again!
I feel frustrated and angry which actually means I’m recovering some because before I had zero emotions but fear. Even that wasn’t that bad. Now the paranoia is painful. I’m frustrated and angry because I just want to be normal. Obviously, I don’t want to be in pain with every action a constant battle. Stupid words set me off. I’m tired of this.
And it happens so quick. One minute I’m fine, the next I’m in disabling fear. One minute I’m having normal conversation. The next minute I’m hearing stuff. I just want to not live on edge all the time.
I take meds but I’m skeptical that they are helping me at all at this point. I’ll keep taking them, I just don’t really see them as working. Nothing works. I keep trying tho.
You guys are my wrap around now. I appreciate it.