Abise's possibly triggering thought thread

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Okay okay I tried really hard not texting this gal today.

I don’t know why I’m so fixated with this gal. I think it’s intertwined with my OCD like behavior. Like I NEED to text for some reason. I feel the need to anyway. It feels like addiction. Like the feeling of wanting to go out and buy drugs.

When I thought I was Jesus few years back in the psych ward, I attended AA and I said

“Hi my name is Jesus and I’m addicted to girls”

I had erotomania for sure. I thought celebrities were in love with me and all. Maybe that’s it I’m addicted.

Like Bowens said it’s unhealthy.

But I can’t stop thinking about her. I don’t even know what’s so good about her. Well she seems cool. She is beautiful. She is my type.

But it’s also part of my delusion. She reminds me of this character I used to hallucinate… that I fell in love with.

I asked her “what do you look for in a man in a relationship” like an idiot, hoping her to answer me like I would like to hear cuz I want to be that man. Almost like a study guide or something. Dumb.

Maybe she didn’t text back because she’s a kind person and didn’t want to give me false hope.

Maybe I should apologize to her and say to her I just want to be friends with her.

How about this:

"Hey, _____ I want to apologize if I offended you in any way. "

Because I want to be friends if I can.

Am I selfish?

Ladies what do you think? Would you be creeped out if I did that?

I just feel wrong not going after what I like.

I mean this is what happens when you text a guy who gives you his number. You can expect that.

I’m sorry for the same topic over and over.

Ps

I just spent couple of hours typing this.

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She can always block your phone number if she feels stalked.

But try to have some self control and respect.

That would be my advice.

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Thank you for your good advice.

But one question if you don’t mind me asking…

Do I really come off as a stalker to you?

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I don’t know but I do know some women feel stalked when being pursued. It’s a thin line but it would be better to be on the safe side of things.

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I wouldn’t call it stalking, she texted me

I just msged her for one or two days

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Yes, I was just going to say…you are spamming this thread a bit. You should have just posted this in the thread that was already open.

Please don’t open another one as long as this thread is active and being replied to. I am going to close your other threads on the matter so we dont have like 4 at once.

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Okay. Thank you for that just wanted to change the titles.

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You called it - “OCD, addiction, eurotomia, unhealthy, can’t stop thinking about her, part of my delusion, hallicinate, also apologies and want to only friend.”

This is true love but you are not able to become a man she wants to marry with.
These are the circumstances.

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Fair enough.

But there are alot of people with schizophrenia in that neighborhood.

Besides, just because I have SZA, it doesn’t mean I can’t marry people

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But you got a point, she does remind me of those sz symptom-like things

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Yea… Just leave her be @anon65069908.

I understand it’s the erotomania talking, but as a woman, this is Creep Central 101.

Sorry you’re having these thoughts, but it’s best to distract yourself— otherwise, you could be looking at legal repercussions or worse.

Good luck to you :+1:

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If you behave all flaky she will most probably consider you too unstable to be with. If you message her, wait for a answer, before sending a new text. You can’t force the matter.

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Yeah… I guess it’s creepy, but really it’s just thoughts

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That is a polite way of thinking. Its reassuring. Thank you.

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Probably not what you want to hear, but from reading your posts I’m afraid it might be so. Just take it easy. It’s not the end of the world if it doesn’t work the way you want.

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I guess, and it’s a good thing you’re realizing this is a symptom— I’m just letting you know from one woman’s point of view that if you keep going on with this and it escalates to more texts and trying to see her and stuff, there could be problems for you.

She could go the legal route, or she can get someone to inflict bodily harm.

So yea, it’s just thoughts— until it’s not.

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Absolutely it’s really not too bad if I distract my self.

One thing I learned is that I cannot use Uber on dates. Need a car and a better job for these kind of things

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I honestly think @Bowens and @Mr_Hope have put it more gently and eloquently than I, so I’m glad they have given you some solid input into the matter as well.

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Yes this is great. I need inputs. Ive noticed it was only male users responding typically, so it is great to hear you!

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Yes @anon65069908 , I know. Because it is the same my story. My mother forcefully married me to another girl.
And you wonder, the girl who I loved at that time was made me a manager member of her Google business group, when I published my 25th marriage anniversary poster on local news paper.

It was not ending here, but I blaming her to married a man who is responsible for making me psycho.
Because I lived in the neighborhood of this girl in three towns before l want to propose her. And the man he married after my schizophrenia is her class met in same college. I was in different colleges.

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