I am not bisexual, I am attracted to women, but I am not a “macho” kind of guy. I used to have long hair, was into a lot of jewelry, I like art - color. I am in touch with my feminine side and I get a long better socially with women
I dont act feminine - just not super macho once you get to know me
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I forgot the exact context where I thought this (my medication is good against negative symptoms, but bad for memory), but I think there were formulations that were less cautious than a normal girl would have written, with some kind of testosterone-caused latent aggressiveness.
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To be honest i was kind of offended by this thread, about the whole “i’m not boyish i’m girly thing”. I am a lesbian and in a relationship. I’ve always been a tom boy while my partner is more girly. I get so offended when people ask who is the man in the relationship, just because that is normal in hetero relationships means that’s the way it is in homosexual relationships. Anyway for as long as i remember i’ve always been attracted to girls, like when i was little my favorite disney movie was sleeping beauty but i never imagined myself as aurora but prince philip to save the princess being the prince charming that saves her. All of this before i became sick with sza.
Why would you feel offended @cbbrown, I was trying to explain my situation which is confusing to me, I didn’t mean to offend anyone. Everybody has their special characteristics and there is nothing wrong with being who you really are, you have the right to be who you are, no one is blaming you for being girlish or boyish, lesbian or gay, it’s irrelevant to my delusion @cbbrown, don’t feel offended please.
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Sorry, i may have reacted harshly. When i was little i was very confused, my cousin who is straight once said when she was younger she felt confused too about her sexuality. I don’t know if it’s this illness or what but maybe it’s something everyone goes through and with this illness it’s just magnified
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Sheesh, no wonder y’all have few friends. You can’t exclude everyone who isn’t with in your specific age range and gender and/or sexual identity!
You’re limiting the playing field to something unreal.
Friends are just that, friends, meaning someone you have something in common with and like to share that commonality. It doesn’t mean exclude someone because they are older, opposite sex, married, different race.
When I used to work as a haircutter, I had this group of women I did their hair on a regular basis, all of these women were in their 80’s and above. We became very close, and yes as they died off one by one, it saddened me, but the friendship I had with them was priceless.
There is a lot one can learn by someone older than them that you just can’t get from a textbook. It’s called experience. Don’t discourage friends between young and older people.
I made a friend with a woman who was in her 90’s by asking her if I could give her a ride because she looked in distress standing next to a tree outside the post office. She accepted, got in my car, we started talking, and 3 hours later, went into the store to pick up a couple of things, I drove her home, we talked for another hour or two, and by the time I had left, she offered me her backyard apartment conversion as a place of refuge if I ever needed a place to stay. We had so much in common and she had some excellent advice for me that came in handy.
You’ll see as you get older that “old” people are really young people that time caught up with. They arn’t much different than young people, except hopefully wiser. Don’t discourage anyone as potential friends and maybe you will start finding yourself with many more.
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I agree @cbbrown , sz did change my orientation in a weird way, and this wasn’t there when I was symptomatic free, this delusion had surfaced again when I had the relapse.
James sister is 17 years old. i don’t think she should be good friends with an elderly man that James thinks she is crushing on. I’m okay with dating different age groups if the person wants to do it but not when they are a minor or young adult which she is. That’s my opinion. even if their just friends i don’t think it’s a good idea.
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My personal opinion is that an intergender society would be a better one. One that embraces a liberal encouragement for all to find themselves regardless of whether they enjoy stereotypically masculine or feminine endeavours.
I remember reading years ago in one of my Mums gossip magazines (I’m male) that any fantasy is acceptable as it’s just make believe.
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I still wouldn’t discourage the friendship, regardless of the age difference, but that isn’t to say it wouldn’t be a chaperoned friendship.
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My son always had many friends as he was growing up, but he had mainly “girl friends” and lots of them. As he grew into his teens and probably in the very early stages of sz, although he hung out with girls most of the time, he never had a “girlfriend”. It seemed a little off to me, but as long as he had good friends and seemed happy, all was well. When he was struck with sz at age 20, one of the first things he did was tell me he was gay. I knew he really wanted to get that off his chest, but it was the least of my worries since he had just had his first major break. As time went on and his sz was becoming full blown, he would say occasionally he liked women as well as men. It seemed to me like he was somewhat confused as to what his preference was. I do believe he is in a relationship now with a guy although he is not telling me very much about it. I just want him to be happy and in a loving relationship whether it be with male or female.
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Our friends giggle a bit and say I’m the man in our house and my husband is the woman. But I don’t care. I’m better at fixing the car and building stuff than he is. He takes care of laundry and dishes. We both take care of the kids.
I lived with a girl for 3 years before I met my husband. She was a control freak. I hate it when someone has control over every step I take, what ever I do. I don’t believe all girls are like that.
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That is a very good idea. That is why I love this forum. Thank you for that.
I sort of hate to admit it, but the old guy is VERY cool. My 17 year old kid sis is smitten. To her… he’s the most interesting man in the world.
She says there’s a touch of the Johnny Depp about him. She’s says there is a coolness that negates all age. I can see that in a vague way maybe.
He’s a young minded thinker, he’s musical as well as artistic, and philosophical and he’s energetic. He’s a classy guy. He looks great for his age, but he’s 67. He might not know my sis has a mad crush on him. He might honestly think she’s interested in his art.
Yes, she has a deep mad crush on him. I’m thinking she sees him as safe since guys her age have been a heartbreak for her. But I’ve seen my kid sis when the heart speak louder then the head and for now, the heart is speaking much louder then the logic…
I don’t think she is smitten in the normal sense of boy girl crush. There are so many ways to love someone not just romantically. In my opinion a girl can not have to many father figures in their life. I think he is just a friend that is safe. Try not to put more into the relationship then what is there.
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This makes me smile in a sad way. Poor Dad. He’s spent so much time trying to convince her that he’s her Dad and not me. There was time when she was learning how to speak that she called both of us Dad. Now he’ll have another one to compete with. Maybe that’s what’s bugging me about this… because in a way… so do I. This family dynamic stuff gets too complicated. 
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My sis knows how to fix the car… When she first got her car my Dad didn’t want her out with a boy late at night having “car trouble”.
So he put her in a car maintenance class so she could fix it. She can fix cars, I actually do know how to knit. I learned it at a day hospital. I feel there is no basis for “traditional” rolls. You know what you know because of the path you’ve been on.
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Maybe not compete with, but this man sounds neat enough to be both your friends. You both could learn something great about youthful aging.
Honestly, it makes me laugh to hear young people defining “old” as a door you step through that turn everything you have been into something completely unknown and for the rest of the time, behave as only “old”.
Getting older doesn’t change people into something else completely, think of it as it “intensifies” some and “mellows” others.
I still think I’am young, just my body don’t agree 100%. Hehehe.
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I knew someone that at 17 started hanging out with an older neighbor. He was married and knew everyone so they thought nothing of it only to find out down the road that they had an affair. I’m not saying this old man is like this. He sounds cool and neat to know. And your sister is more mature than most teenagers but she also sounds vulnerable a bit. i’m just putting it out there. It probably is innocent. 
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