I am completely straight. I used to think I leaned both ways but I don’t think so anymore, I wouldn’t like the work involved with satisfying a woman’s needs. I know this may cause reactions but it’s how I genuinely feel, I can be attracted to a woman and admire her as beautiful but before I go any further I wind up thinking about how sex would be and it scares me, sex with a male doesn’t scare me as much but still scares me. I’m being honest.
I have had gender identity difficulties for a while I thought myself as male but didn’t act upon it knowing it would break my mums heart that’s also when I was really deep in schiz and just out of hospital but still at my worst I just wore baggy clothes trying to hide myself it was more due to where my mind was but
I’m more happy being a female now, some days I hate it but other days I’m quite pleased I was born as female.
I think it is more prevalent in people with mental illness, I think because your mind is so confused anyway and you’re going through a lot of pain I know with me I couldn’t stand my physical form at my worst because I could be identified by spies and everyone who knew me. I hated myself for many reasons and part of me thought if I was male, I’d be taken more seriously and things would be happier (I know men aren’t taken more seriously now, it varies from person to person but that’s how I felt. I know I had tried to take my life and I was told despite it being a serious attempt that I couldn’t have meant it because I wasn’t male and wasn’t likely to act again despise the fact I had no recollection of doing the attempt itself I’d been planning for weeks, I’m glad I failed now).
I think because we’re so hard on ourselves in mental illness it’s likely to cause gender dysphoria because it’s a change and we doubt everything about ourselves so doubting gender is the next step.
I’m very opinionated in this post for which I apologise for any offence caused I don’t mean it just saying my opinions from the time I felt those things.