Can you explain your life situation in 5-6 sentences in a paragraph?
Where are you in your life right now?
Me personally
Good place in career, almost independent, comfortable.
Every day is a struggle of mood swing and misery.
Wish to change certain things in my life but they are impossible/complicated.
Figuring out if this is all there is.
Just want to travel the world. My new life purpose.
Independently living,
but broke
educated
but unemployed
Hopeful
but simultaneously depressed
Lacking in goals and ambitions,
but happy with past accomplishments.
Living a double life, sometimes three
but whole somehow!
why are you unemployed?
Care to elaborate?
unemployed because there are few opportunities. I work in education but got a cannabis dui recently that resulted in the loss of my job and I haven’t been successful in finding similar work since most likely due to the dui. So, I took a minimum wage job doing tutoring, but then I got pneumonia and my employers put me on a leave of absence and are requiring a re interview, so basically I got fired for being in the hospital and that’s how they can legally get away with firing me, by putting me through another interview where they can reject my continued employment. It’s a long ugly story…i’ve just had terrible luck with employers. I’m seeing a vocational specialist who works with the disabled, but I haven’t gotten any work since I quit working back in April.
As to part II, I don’t tell 90% of people I’m schizophrenic. I fake being normal, and have through my college and grad school years. There’s the entire decade of mental wards and psychosis that nobody knows about except my closest friends. Also, I have a wild, party side, that others don’t know about. So that’s a third side. 
First of all, I would like to say that it is very commendable for you to have a career, selene. Most sz’s don’t work.
As for my personal situation:
so how do you survive on your own?
DUI cannabis is something no one should tolerate 
especially when it involves others as well
I am like you but twice I could not get away faking that I am normal. I was suffering so much… I got fired twice and now just working on my own. I am grateful for that but it is not a fixed income, it fluctuates and could stop any time. I am not very stable to just be completely independent as I do not have anybody other than a few friends
I think you are capable of controlling certain things about your life, the party side and cannabis… I wish you well.
Living the dream- on a government pension. Volunteer with a cricket club which gets me out of the house. live with parents and I’m 47 but it’s lo stress and the cat and I do well. Participate in life where I can. One day I hope to wake up!
I can sum it up in 2.
Technically at very good place in life, prepping for nursing school, have a job, living with my family, etc
Mentally/emotionally not at a good place at all, in between medications and my brain chemistry has been going completely bonkers, constant mood swings and whatnot.
dui cannabis is very difficult to prove and the arresting officer admitted on teh stand i wasn’t driving impaired. they framed me for recording the officer threatening me with violence once he got to my window
The science behind dui and cannabis is not ready yet, there are a lot of maybe’s and innocent people’s lives are being wrecked. It’s not like alcohol dui’s, the science isn’t as clear cut as over a .08
I wasn’t driving impaired, I wasn’t driving erratically, I had a broken light out and then I had an anxiety attack when the cop told me he’d drag me out if I didn’t obey him (after I had said okay to his orders and was complying).
We can combine our lives together and make a great life. I feel I am at a dead end career wise and whatnot. No hope in that regard… That said I am pretty stable mental wise.
Then again I enjoy the relying on SSDI/doing whatever I want lifestyle. And playing with my kitten.
But I did find it interesting how our lives are polar opposites pretty much
I don’t have a job. I have schizophrenia. Still think to the future. Would like to become successful. Maybe do some math.
Married with mostly grown children.
Have a mentally handicapped daughter.
Was an RN but couldn’t continue to function as one due to sz.
Addicted to this forum. 
Currently working part time while doing some self employment stuff on the side while saving money to pay off my car.
Negative symptoms up and down.
Just trying to enjoy life and stay as low stressed as possible.
Part time job stressing me out recently because of new manager.
Life has gotten better with more money to play with finally.
Ummm…I live alone. No tv, no computer. Just play on my phone all day.
Weight lifting - trying to get the rest of my body as well and proportionate to other parts. It’s an art form. One I love 
School - I don’t really know where I want to go with that so I’ll just go all over and it takes too much time. The time makes me mad because most of the kids are younger than me and I have less time than them before employers will shut their doors on me for being out of work so long.
I have no friends and my old friends were mostly bad dudes who got me, themself, or all of us in trouble. I see them in the street sometimes and I just think that I don’t fit in with them anymore. Some went on to be fairly successful but most of the bad ones are the ones who want to hang out.
My mental health seems to be pretty good. I’m in a fairly good mood most of the time because the people I have met online are as well.
I am waiting for my birthday in September and to have money to buy parts for building my computer. I’ve got most of the expensive parts, I just need the motherboard and the graphics card. I’ve been eating too much junk food and I think it’s taking a toll on my mentality. It was good until my Dad started cooking again. Always with the porkchops. Then it got worse when I moved by myself a couple months ago. Started eating lots of carbs. Now I just bought some fish today so that will be good
Bought my second house, contractor is a crook. Situation with house is not reparable and is kind of the neighborhood lemon being used to screw people 3 times at least. Asked for eminent domain from city to buy it as unsafe due to electrical problems which could shock someone and just have it condemned…Sad, really lovely house but cannot find anyone locally I could trust to work on it as no one returns phone calls. Ran out of $$$.
Trying to pick up more clients for social media/desktop publishing businesses so decided to take Virtual Assistant stuff too as I have experience. Can work 20 hours on SSDI … My psychosis never stopped at 13 years medicated or not, insomnia is hard to treat and meds rationed. Had to give up life/death work that used to support me as just not safe to take these jobs any longer and really just not good work here any more with bad staffing/low pay for risk involved. Virus wiped out lots of computer equipment in May so in lots of debt. Was given hard time at college here and kind of exhausted after so much BS/hearing it too long so probably find a more skilled and inspired worker if they tried but keep trying so I can live independently again in couple years.
Living with family. Moved to take bad apartment choice and not safe to stay. Couldn’t afford better place. Stinks as I get MUCH better work in city immediately but happy to work at home as no discrimination/harassment/hostility. Have to dig out of more debt.
Working through the frustration to exercise daily and eat better.
Lost my father in June. Kinda still in disbelief. I’m 43 so going through the middle age thing. Hate uncertainty. I’m not used to as my 20s were okay around here with stable work and self support/independent living…
Lots of people my age around here have similar story so know it’s just tough area.
I also dont have friends, but I”d like to have. It is very bad to have nobody to socialize with…
i cant read and learn
i cant hang out like other people
im unemployable
i can feel music
im happy
I exercise daily
I play chess
I eat healthy
I watch my weight
I participate in schizophrenia forum.
Thats good…how many hours do u excersize …!! Erez my beutiful man!!!
I swim every day for maybe 50 minutes.
I do strength training every other day for more than an hour.
And I hope to add rowing and running to my routine at least to a degree that my body permits me.
( I used to do those a lot).