Since becoming schizophrenic, I think my nature as an energy form has changed. For example, I used to feel like I was made up of sharp, fine energy, but now I feel dull and blunt all the time. I also used to sense very vibrant, rich energies everywhere (coming from places, music, people, etc.). However, now the world and everything in it seems shallow and bland.
Does anyone else feel like they have changed as an “energy form” since taking ill? In other words, do you think the energy or the vibration which you consist of is different? Or do you feel like the energy of the world around you feels altered? If so, what is the change like for you?
For me it became more dull, more cold. As of lately I don’t have motivation or energy as I used to. I know of people much older than me that are much more alive. I have the energy but it’s contained by the medication.
I never had too much energy in my late teens.I was often depressed.My best years were after therapy for me.I don’t have too much energy but i know that i can improve a lot.I am 2,5 years on recovery.
I’ve worked hard not to be the person I used to be…
This illness drug me through some dark places… a fog of lost… There were some years were I was NOT a good person at all…
To over come this illness… I’ve taken anger management… coping classes… gotten clean and sober… worked on better social skills… worked on being patient.
I’m sure this changed my energy.
Getting into the world outside my head helped me get my energy back.
Not sure if this is what you mean but my appreciation of chi energy has changed dramatically. I used to be able to cultivate easily by meditation but now nothing. It’s like someone has knocked my aerial over. To be honest this really scares me.