I’ve experienced dramatic changes to my vibrational energy since being diagnosed. I believe we’re all energy forms, and my energy form has been transformed and degraded tremendously.
This manifests in some different ways. To begin with, I just -feel- like a lower energy form: I’m less positive; my energy is soggier, dull, and blunt instead of sharp, crisp, and fine; and instead of being bright in color, I’m dim.
Next, because I’m a lower vibrational energy, I perceive the world very differently. I used to feel differentiated energies coming from people and places, but now I don’t - I’m too low vibrational to sense such things anymore. I also no longer feel amazing joy; that emotion has become outside my energetic range. In general, the world used to be full of energies (some of them awesome), but now I’m blind to most of them.
It’s hard for me to explain what a shift in “vibrational energy” is, but I think you know it if you’ve experienced it.
Has schizophrenia caused a decrease in your vibrational energy? What was it like for you? How would you describe it? (I’m curious if it’s similar to my experience.)
Yes, it definitely has and it’s a dramatic change
Yes, it definitely has and it’s a moderate change
Yes, it definitely has and it’s a minor change
It sounds like something I’ve experienced, but I’m not sure
It doesn’t sound like something I’ve experienced, but I’m not sure
The slowness of the meds make it feel like my vibration is lower. Off meds it feels very high, the problem is I can’t sleep off meds and my symptoms come back
I don’t take APs, so this may account for some of the differences. I feel energy literally everywhere; it is overwhelming and has increased since I was diagnosed. I personally have high energy in general – alright, too damned many rainbows high energy; I bounce off the walls all day until I hit the pillow and then I sleep like a baby. I’m bright in color but like chartreuse–not a color anyone is comfortable being or looking at.
Violently Happy by Bjork sums my experience up nicely. I feel joy until my head nearly explodes and I’m about to stab dolls with scissors while running back and fourth in a straight jacket. Interestingly, I have major depression, so the only thing I can blame all this energy on is anxiety. I experience joy, passion, ecstasy and more and it’s always like an explosion with reverberations. I’m overcome by it; I can barely leave the house for the rest of the day.
I would not say that schizophrenia decreased by vibrational energy. It probably increased it. But it increased it to an uncomfortable level. I spend a lot of time each day trying to ground myself and I never really accomplish that.