You know how you just wish you could do better but cannot?

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that’s how i feel emotionally. i wish i could be more loving, forgiving and sweet to all the people I feel paranoid about… but I guess the paranoia in the mind causes the

bitterness
anger
frustration
poor reality testing
nasty temperament.

I am going to my therapist next week. hope it helps.

thanks for “listening”. judy

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I hope it helps as well. Good luck.
I know when I fail at something it usually makes me more afraid of it, then I was before I tried. So it makes me even more afraid of trying things I know I’m afraid of.

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Nzbitnoff, hi. that adds up. makes sense to me.

also after trying and failing all my life at getting along well with people in my “real” life I find it difficult to keep on trying and trucking along.

now I feel like a truck itself. I gained weight, look angry, feel angry and am downright out of balance. I hate being this way.

judy

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i hope you get strength from the words written here.and of course from sharing with your therapist…pour your heart out and you will probably feel better…hang tough…

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You are being hard on yourself. I`m glad you are going to see your therapist.

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