i don’t hate you. i think it is a difficult one to deal with i agree. takes lots of therapy and self love. like for me personally i am still working on low self esteem for many years
talking to a proffessional helps cos theyve got helpful perspectives and sometimes they say things that just help reassure me a bit. plus they motivate me to make the effort to think about the way i am thinking about things, and then we discuss it in therapy.
i am fortunate cos i will at some point be referred to long term talk therapy. pretty grateful
idk if that is something you already do or want to try or get some top up sessions