your parents sound so cool .
take care
Iām into land scaling. Thats what my favorite friend would say. When I was in jail all the drug dealers would say they where into dry walling. It really doesnāt matter what you say. Just as long as you know about it. Land scaling is pretty simple. You mow lawn s maybe put down clumps of grass and that is it.
whats happened with me is that i have lived on my own since i was 16 ive lived in digsnext to psycopaths and heroine addicts who have taken advantage of me life has taught me to be hypervigilant of other peoples intentions.
I defend my character, not my reputation,
Because character is what you are,
And reputation is what others think of you.
Your reputation can be many things, based on what others hear and repeat, and none of it maybe true, therefore, I donāt put much worth in what others think of me.
My reputation however, is based on what I do that others see, and what I know Ive done, and is based on the truth.
It can be misinterpreted by some, but time reveals all.
So, I do put a lot of value in how I behave, both in public and in private. Iām not saying I do no wrong, but Iāam saying I do my best to do no intentional wrong, especially if it pertains to hurting others.
Last time i got a haircut i told her to shave it all off, no guard required.
She asked ādid you lose a bet or something?ā
It was annoying.
And donāt worry about what they might think of you, you already know itās bad, nothing to worry about there, be sad, angry, or fearful about sure, but not worried. They do it to eachother non-stop as well, nobody gets out of it really.
They are as crazy as we are.
oh my gosh daydreamerā¦I was just thinking of this today. I was asked some questions htat got me to think about this issue and I noticed that I fear meeting new people for oneā¦they always ask, āwhat do you do?ā āwhere do you workā? I have had only one person in a polite but verey curious mind how I made ends meet w/o working.
when I was marriedā¦it was just assumed my hb supported me. now I am single with a child/teenager and when people find out I am not working you can see the question all over their faceā¦āHow in the world are you making a livingā? probably think I am on welfare. but evenoon that people canāt make itā¦itās more like a supplement.
Or people asksing me why I donāt work. I just really emphasize my volunteering work when the question of work comes up.
people donāt think your a contributing citizen to society unless your working and it is almost embarrassing to let someone know you donāt work.
I am symptom free pretty much at the time and fairly stable but I know I still could not just yet hold down a job. It may be in the future for me but I am not sure when.
I admit, when I meet people and I hear in the conversation that they arenāt working, I do ask āHow are you with keeping out of the cold?ā
Because having been homeless once myself, I do know the shelters around here, I do know where people can go to get plugged in before they loose everything hopefully. So I do ask, āHow are you making the ends meet?ā
Itās honestly not meant as a judgment. Itās meant to let them know thereās help out there.