Everything I tell them is just referred to as my ‘experiences’ and nothing more. Experiences… what the heck is that supposed to mean?
Just because I was a straight A student at school, have blonde hair and blue eyes and am nice and polite to everyone, even psychiatric staff, they use this against me and just dodge the bullet or avoid the elephant in the room.
Nothing is done about my “experiences”, I’m just told to focus on my future, use distraction techniques, and meditate. Well tell me how the ■■■■ I’m supposed to go to uni or get a job when I’m too fatigued to even leave the house and walk to the shop. Tell me how the ■■■■ I’m supposed to go out and meet new people, trust their two-faced snakey asses when my head is full of evil characters that so-called mental health professionals say don’t exist even though I hear them and feel their presences in my blood. I have no identity, I’m nothing without my mental problems. I am their host. Even mosquitoes love me.
Maybe I should just starve myself until I get forced into a hospital. Right now my physical health is apparently “perfect” but that just makes me invalid in the mental health community and to the staff because it shows I can take care of myself but I can’t, I really can’t.
Tell a skeleton to just meet up with friends or go to the gym. Tell a skeleton you’re going to discharge them in a couple of months because they don’t need the mental health services any more. Tell a skeleton there’s nothing wrong with them. Tell a skeleton they’re fine.
My pdoc once yelled at me in a ward at the top of his lungs. They probably don’t care jess because they see numerous people a day. Idk I’m probably wrong
No. I don’t think my odoc takes me seriously because he asks me what med has worked for me in the past. Uh shouldn’t you be figuring that out for me. Sometimes I think the pdocsvget overwhelmed by case load,or tired of us
Omg I hate it when they do that. Last time I saw a pdoc, he was asking me which APs I had researched and which one I wanted to try. I felt like he was mocking me because I studied psychology at college yet there I was sat in a shrink’s office.
Didn’t you say that you thought you were in a computer or something? I had the exact same thing. I used to be a hypochondriac and I used to look stuff up. But I stopped doing that. I hate the medical field now. I stopped looking up medications, diagnoses, etc. I feel better. A lot of doctors are overworked and aren’t up to date with the latest research. I just have to let things go and put faith in the doctors; they are the experts aftertall.
If I ever study psychology, I would only do so for computer science.
I don’t have a personality disorder. I only threaten to do those things because it is the only way I can escape and stop feeling/experiencing these things. Nothing else will help me feel better anyways.
I have begged my doctors numerous times to drug me up so I won’t have to experience anything at all but they say no. I want the highest dose of SSRI possible and sleeping pills so I can sleep during the day but they say no.
And the psychiatrist at the hospital wouldn’t put me into a coma even though I told her that would make me feel better when she asked me what she could do to help.
Seriously have you gotten a 2nd opinion? My friend who had struggled w depression and anxiety for years tried seeing our school’s psychiatrists. Two different ones, and both told her her problems weren’t that bad and to just try yoga or whatever and refused to prescribe her anything. (She was suicidal at one point!! I remember her leaving all her sharp objects in our apartment bc she was scared she’d hurt herself!) Finally she ended up seeing a private pdoc who finally listened and now she’s getting the help she needed.
Some doctors are just idiots. Not everyone w mental illness presents as a shambling mess. That’s a very stereotyped image.
I think my doctors are wary of treating me because of my age and also I’m apparently really intelligent and lovely. Lmao.
I would happily be handcuffed to a bed and drugged up locked in an asylum for the rest of my life. The world just isn’t a place for me but I’m already here so may as well stick around.
Jesus, chill a bit
docs are just humans and humans sometimes make mistakes.
Try to get more opinions or diagnosis from some other docs, take your time, if you get disability most places make it retro.
Your true diagnosis will be clear later in life anyway.
I hate being female sometimes.