I always wonder why can’t I miggle with people like everyone else.
Am I that bad ?
Or my thoughts reflect a bad frequency? Which ripple everyone!
Just because I am bad if people hate me I can understand.
I think I will be mean to everyone then I don’t have to regret.
Is this a right way of thinking ?
I don’t hate you
Edit: I agree with @Wave - Don’t be mean to others.
Nah that’s not the way to go
Being mean to everyone will get you nowhere.
Be kind (yourself)
Thanks @TheCanuk and @Wave I will be good, but when regret plays a role I feel unrealistic why people do these things to me. Or may be I am just over thinking.
They hate me too .
Always have .
It’s not because I have bad vibes Because I have awesome loving peaceful vibes .
It’s because they are jealous and want to be me and steal my inner beauty n nature n aura n light n golden moments n eye time etc
They want to act as me in my body maliciously n bd bad to n got me n etc
So they look n feel good in what is actually me n not them .
But who n all I am will come back to my real body n so .
Some things can’t be stolen .
When I was eleven they cut n took all etc n I was empty meat in way n them as me sometimes suffer n set up n bullied n molested psychological torture etc
Sometimes they hate you not because you are worthless in reality but because they see your true worth and power and don’t want uou to have it or be it and they putrid mf.
They lie n cheat deeply .
Fooled are many but not all .
True beauts still exist .
There’s hope .
We have this forum .
My sacred homi hubby loves me as I he n my dog probably loves me .
Rest hate me n treat me like 
n have done disgusting stuff while looking and feeling good and fair but man is that not the truth for those who know know .
I kinda had an intense bad man attach to me unfairly with his williamairs of stealing who I am n being disgustingly n fake etc n nothing fair n miracle I’m alive ….
Figure out how to get him and them away from me so they can’t keep stealing who I am n my riches from me n rye time n golden moments n nature n aura n spirit etc
Whole countries in on the horribleness so hope I can find a way to be smart and get them out of my body and my sacredness out of and away from them n that they have no access to me anymore .
Also I want precious golden moments with my homi hub and to be ourselves together n so .
N myself with myself playful n my dog n true beauts .
You’re not hated here. If you feel like your social skills are lacking, there are books to improve them. I know you read.
I am going through few audio books from YouTube I think its made by AI,
they make sense actually simple not much complicated topics
but make real good meaning
Thanks 
Audio books are great! I like to listen sometimes too, especially when I don’t want to sit still and read. There are audiobook streaming services that are like netflix but for audiobooks.
I cant spend on apps I have just taken membership for YouTube which has mostly everything.
How are you doing ?
YouTubes got a lot anyway. I’m doing better than I’ve ever been, thank you for asking. I know there’ll probably come a crash within a couple of months but I’m just enjoying this time of better health and cheer. How are you holding up?
I am doing good I got a method how to take med’s for best performance.
I take 20 mg Aripiprazole for 25 days and for 7 days I will drop the dose to 15 and again increase to 20, this way the meds is holding up, But I do feel the difference on 15, cant focus much on current subject, but while on 20 for longer duration I am getting memory issues. So i play around with meds as per my symptoms show up as I know what the pdoc does with my previous symptoms and this works better for me. But yes when I reduce and increase the meds I am able to be stable,
lesser meds confusion and higher meds memory issue so I balance them out in a month, start of the month to the last week of the meds I am on high dose and the last week of the month I am on 15. I have done this for past 4 months now and I do feel good.
Where did you hear of this method? I haven’t heard of anyone trying this before.
When I go to pdoc in the past this is what he used to do, so instead of spending 1k every month i spend now only 1k every 3 months. or in emergency situations I go as far as the last appointment, there was on emergency with this method.
Else I used to have severer memory issues and confusions , I just took all my records since dxded and found out this is what the most format of changes made in meds.