sorry to complain again but I still look for help.
Does somebody here also feels his brain in his head? Its some kind of sensation that I have. but idk why… Maybe I think too much in an autistic way? I just think, think, think… and its not big ideas, its just some stupid inner thinking… Maybe its what causes to feel my brain in my head? Do you think it can disappear with time? Maybe its caused by all the loneliness from the years. I am not sure if its depressive thing…
I want liberty in my head. I want some better touch with reality, to feel love for others too cause now I dont feel it… ok, I am not in the bed anymore because of the meds but I still live a lot like a recluse.
take care of you
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If things have improved, then maybe the rest will get better in time too. 
Anna u look like angela merkel the German chancellor. . Am i right…Bulgarian model.
I am prettier dont you think? hahah 
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Yes i support u at the end…take care …have a wonderful day ahead…
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How are you far_cry?I was feeling a bit bad today but after a while it went away… I didn’t want to take my klonopin. My moms insists of taking it but I want to skip it sometimes :).
Thank you @everhopeful. Maybe I should just be patient like you say. Ive waited a year on meds already. But I guess I was quite crazy so it will take more time. I am paranoid about myself. I get paranoid when we talk about the madness in public, I am not sure why. I am always afraid that the others will see that I am in a bad shape… I am pathetic right now, yeah. but I am already quite pissed off the paranoia and the physical manifestations of my illness. grrh…
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but what can I do in the moments of despair ever? Should I tell myself that meds will work better with time? My pdocs dont want to switch them anymore. i am on my feet because of them yes. But those negatives are hard. i have this pain in my soul sometimes, i dont know what to do with it… its physical almost you see…
I don’t know. I’m not sure there’s much we can do sometimes.
i hate the idea that ill be forever symptomatic…
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Have you tried any supplements like sarcosine or l-theanine ?
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idk… i dont believe in supplements for me tbh. what if i suffer from a bad character? one of my pdocs told it once… but i have some other symptoms yeap. But i can really get hateful, jealous, irritable, that’s all :(.
You might not have anything to lose by trying them. It’s worth thinking about anyway.
Maybe i just need to change my thinking. i was hateful for too long… maybe i just do believe in this still. meds are a help of thinking more reasonably i find…
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Have you consdered taking some online courses from home? Would keep your mind occupied and you may find new things you like to explore.
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I am sure i wont assure @Andrey. Maybe i am in the phase of accepting my illness now… Its been just since a year that i try to change and accept myself wow…
before that i was just complaining and maybe too much negative :(. I try to occupy myself with internet, some movies and some books…
Btw, i saw my ‘‘typical’’ post in your thread Andrey, hah, it was funny :). Yeah, 17 years like this… its true its true but you are right. i dont want to lose 17 more years like this…
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People tell me that I live like a recluse. But, difference is that I don’t suffer.
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Is the “brain in your head” like a circle or bubble or a ball in the back of your head?
I started having a tactile feeling in my head like you describe @Anna1, it started 10 years after my initial diagnosis, don’t really know why.
nope, its not in the back of my head. its more in the front, close to the forehead… i think that i think too much in fact. you know, when you think too much you start to have a headache you see? its combined with anxiety about my futureand i contract badly my mouth cause i am not chill…maybe the reasons are a lot of worries and bad mood… Maybe its just the result of my loneliness and my passivity.
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