I had a bad day with the impossibility to think well. For god sake, i feel my brain in my head!!! Its the worries, the fear. I pay efforts, dont judge me. But nobody is struggling so much with no result… will this thing to feel my brain in my head will stop? Its sad that meds are not a big help for the moment… i lack positive emotions too… its not evident cause i find thoughts and emotions are linked while my brain is in so much pressure…
Briefly, is there a chance that meds will help me more for the clarity of my thoughts?
Hugs to all
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Sorry for posting sometimes the same old thing but I really suffer all day long some days 
. Maybe impatience is not good for my case but ive lost everything in the life years ago… and I dont want to spend another years like this. I struggle but sometimes theres no result. Sorry if I spread a bit of negativity here but this forum really helps me. You all are helping me :).
I guess meds are just not working till now and that’s why I am in this state. I dont focus on them in the day and I am probably very ill so they need time, idk…
Anna, I’m sorry you’re suffering so much. You don’t have to apologize for your posts, as far as I’m concerned! I’m always happy to see you here. You’re a good online friend to me. And it’s great to hear that you find the forum supportive - so do I.
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Anna at which age did u diagnosed sz…???
Around my 27s farcry 
. But I have symptoms since kid. I had very unhappy childhood, I was suffering as hell but nobody didn’t notice it. But it would have been a tragedy too if I were diagnosed as kid, they would have dopped me with meds in early age, I am not sure it would have been better.
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Same here anna i suffered psychosis from age 24 …my childhood was preety awful and messy…
Do you take antidepressant farcry? I wonder if those kind of meds help our negatives… But my experience with antidepressants till now was bad, all they just lifted my paranoia so I am bit tired of experimenting with them.
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@Anna1 My heart goes out to you, really it does…For what it’s worth, the medication is supposed to give you respite from the all-consuming positive symptoms of your sz. The lack of clarity of your thoughts are the residual negative symptoms which remain after your breakdown in your teens. Emotions will be naturally blunted because of this. It is not your fault, it is the sickness unfortunately. You have to slowly re-build your personal resilience to the absence of highs and lows of your life by retraining yourself to think in adaptive ways. You have to be flexible with yourself. Do the most when you feel a bit stronger, and on an off-day do your best to get through it. We all have these moments where we want to do more than we currently do, but we learn that life has taken this turn and we have to adapt. One day they will solve the puzzle of negative symptoms, and life will become easier for you. Please take care and learn to love yourself. - Peace.
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Anna1 my positive symptoms are always manageble …cognitive and negative are worse…i cant study due to cognitive impairment …i cant work due to negative symptoms …i think effective meds would come in the future…dont worry anna …we have to live this life…
Hi, you, thanks for your message 
. Do you think that the best against my negatives remain the activity? Maybe I can break down the bad habits if I am more active? I still believe that with time I can recover on my emotions and thoughts but maybe I am wrong. Do you think that my loneliness for the last 2 decades made my illness worse or its just the illness which makes me worse?
yes, I try to love myself and to give myself a courage lol, lol 
Farcry, me personally I have a good concentration for learning new things but on some other things I am just dumb. I have intrusive and paranoid thoughts who doesn’t help me for functioning. Me, I cant work because of the paranoia too, not because only the negatives .
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We all are plauged by different symptoms…i have never had paranoia or intrusive thought…just laziness and cognitive symptoms…
good for you. Me, I am afraid that people will judge me even by talking with them on facebook. I have some bunch of fears.
Hey anna have u tried mindfullness therapy…like meditation …they say it might ease ur paranoia to some level…
Yesterday my friend adviced me this and I think ill start doing it. Does youtube is good for it?
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Yes but find a therapist they will guide u up…
good… Ill try this, certainly Thanks
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Try it anna1 i root for u …then report how it goes…
If you are able to, take a stroll in nature. It is calming for your head. All the city stress will drop. Sunrises are magic. Especially in nature.
Sunrises made me feel the magic again. Just for a short while, but I felt it!
I need to add that I’ve had anhedonia for 8 years. Maybe it was time to heal a bit.
Btw, I feel my brain in my head. In your opinion what is this? A delusion? My intrusive obsessive thinking? Or more a depression thing?
I would like to feel something else instead of this… But I dont know if I need time or its up to something else.