I was thinking…it is pretty obvious…that escapism thing.
For instance, as many others, I would get high or drunk or otherwise numbed, in cases
when I feel abandoned
when I fail to accomplish something I wanted so much
when I feel depressed but don’t want to feel depressed
when I want to feel sorry for myself and cry about how miserable things are
That is not the way though. But I think you have to be a bit of masochistic to want to feel the pain and go through it, ride it, live it, let it go, let it flow, whatever it is.
Addiction is a vicious cycle. It probably starts with the things you speak of then as you get more used to doing it then you become more sensitive to little things and use escapism more and more. Also you’re more apt to fail if you escape so you wanna further escape. Like if you’re always high you fail all your classes then try to escape more.
I’m at a good place in life but the littlest things set me off still because escaping had become the norm for me.
Idk how this naltrexone ■■■■ works but it real does help with drug and alcohol cravings.
Words of wisdom as always ttp ( well mostly always hahaha)
It’s like, I hate myself for being coward and not facing what is there…so I’m gonna drink/smoke/■■■■/inject to forgot that I hate myself…such a tragicomedy
I’ve always been an escapist. I love alcohol. Weed is about the only mood altering chemical I don’t like. There are so many dangerous drugs out there now that I think I am just going to stick to alcohol to fulfill my escapist tendencies. It will probably shorten my life if I drink heavily, but I’m not too worried about that.
