Started using again, since I got out of the hospital. Self medicating.
I know how bad that sounds.
I don’t know if we can talk about drugs on here.if not, sorry.
I can’t admit it to anyone else, but my own behavior scares me bad.
Screwed up my six months sober.
I’m not asking for sympathy or pity,
Although I know most of you have been there.
What I really need is someone to yell at me or care just a bit or guilt me into going straight again .tell me how selfish and awful I am being. right now I have no reason, nothing I want enough to keep me from spiraling out of control. I don’t know who else to talk to.
There is no NA around where I live, and I can’t bear to admit to friends or family , the few I have left.
I can’t find a reason to stop
But im trying
Life just wasn’t worth it the way it was
Sorry for being over dramatic
Why do I do this to myself?
Sorry! what did you relapse on. I know it’s tough 
you can’t live the way you’d like to with drugs, it’s hard to live without too. Weed is my drug of choice.
Stimulants mostly… Got so tired of feeling exhausted and depressed. But then weed again. Shrooms. Heroin.
Absolutely everything and anything I could get, if I’m honest. It’s gotta stop now cause it gets bad so fast , I have no control.
Thanks for answering I’m having a ■■■■■■■ panic attack realizing what I’ve done again.
I’ll snap out of it
Im scared to be sober again it’s gonna hurt bad this time around
Damn I never got into stimulants past coffee and nicotine and depressants past alcohol and some benzos because it’s like a balancing act I’ve heard. I was always prone to psychedelics like shrooms but can’t take em anymore on the meds or trust me I would… but it’s a good thing I can’t and don’t anymore.
Staying clean is difficult to do on your own. There may be some help available to you in your area. Can you talk to your family doctor. I’m sure they can help.
Stay strong @Catch22
Man that’s dangerous. Heroin is super addictive. Hope you can pull yourself away from it.
It’s okay it’s just like
A bad flu,
I’ve quit before I can do it again
I think
If you’re doing heroin then you’re in trouble but you don’t seem to realise it.
Please talk to your GP/family doctor. Getting help is nothing to be ashamed of.
Man am too ashamed
All my doc has ever done is try to help,
And then I go and do this.
Besides, she’ll drag my family into it and
I can’t bear to hurt them anymore or make them sad again.
I got this don’t worry.
It was just a moment of self pity
I’ll be okay!
Don’t be ashamed. Relapse is part of recovery for many they say. You had six months that was something to be real proud of. You’re like a million other addicts in this sense you’ve relapsed now it’s time to get back on the wagon and you may need some supports. I’m sure she won’t be mad at you very long if any.
Heroine sounds awful
I have to find my own reason
For coming clean,
A reason for living.
My doctor can’t give that to me
There’s never a good time to get clean. If you’re waiting for the right set of circumstances then you’re thinking like an addict.
You have to talk to your GP, seriously.
I’m an alcoholic. So I have a vague idea what I’m talking about. I’m 4.5 years sober now.
You do but you better find it soon or I’ll whoop ur butt cuz I think you’re a really cool and nice girl and you have a lot going for you. You have some things against you but that’s no reason to not wanna live. Continuing to do heroin is ultimately a death wish these days with all the fentanyl going around. I’d be very sad if you didn’t get help and chose that route over your life that I know you can have. You have a lot to live for still girl! A lot ahead of you.
I was thinking like an addict.
It took pawning my favorite guitar for drugs and a pack of smokes but I’m coming out of it now.
I threw it all out
don’t worry, it had only been a few days,
i’m sweating it out now
thank you
i’ll figure it out i’m so sorry for venting
thanks for being so kind
Just encouraging you a bit!!
You can do it!! Stop them drugs. And of course I’d be this kind 
Just know if you go through this withdrawal one time and never go back again it’ll only be one time you have to go through it again.
I got this!! you helped. just talking helped.
just a few days of feeling awful, this is gonna be the last time,
besides, i want my guitar back,
i gotta get through this and go and buy it back.
thankyouuu<3
Please, get help immediately. Heroine isn’t something to mess around with. Just know that we’re all supporting you. You aren’t alone