I still can distinguish my paranoia from the anxiety, but I think that I have them both. I worry a loot and its painful. My hands are shaky, I have all kind of pains in my body, I sometimes cant stand firmly on my feet, because of the fear.
But will the ap will end up by helping my anxiety at the end?
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I donāt think so. I am not sure
I was on Abilify and had so much anxiety
I switched on Invega and now mild anxiety
I donāt know if was because of AP or not
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One of my aps does help somewhat with anxiety. Itās called saphris. You take it under your tongue and within a few minutes you start to feel sedated which helps with the anxiety. It helps me fall asleep too which is good because sometimes I ruminate at night and it makes it hard to fall asleep. Maybe your doctor would let you try saphris since your other medicine doesnāt give you too much relief. I also take rexulti with it to help with depression. Rexulti is an excellent ap as well but it is a little invigorating and it could actually make your anxiety spike a little depending on your chemistry and how it effects you.
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I am on Zyprexa, leaf. I think its like saphris no? But tbh, I find it really strange, that I even donāt feel it. I donāt find normal not to feel so heavy meds, isnāt it?
Two pdocs doesnāt want to switch my meds. I didnāt respond to 10 others. I guess my anxiety is due to the isolation of almost two decades too.
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Who else was helped by his ap on the anxiety? I just have to do one important job outside and i panic since now. Ill take a klonopin, but its a pity i am such a coward nowā¦
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I take zyprexa. It calms the body very well. Im actually waiting for my pill time cause i can feel how the pill calms my body and relaxes my mood and overall well being.
I am glad it works for you, dear. But on me, it doesnt feel like this at all. I dont feel anything on the zyprexa. Maybe i need more timeā¦
Yes organisms are different.
On this thing to do outside with my mother and this guy, which I donāt know very well, I risk to look at my feet. To hardly stand on themā¦ To say to my mom that I donāt feel fine and to make such a āācircusāā thereā¦ Idk why I am so fragileā¦ Is your paranoia so painful too? I guess its more the anxiety and the lost habits to see people no? Even with the klonopin it will be hard 
. I fight now with my illness, compared to before, but I need peace too now. and this job will be stresfull.
When I am panicked like this, I have those waves of āāweaknessāā in my body, which are ultra painful, peopleā¦ Somebody else here on which the aps doesnāt help your fears? it suxā¦ sorry to bother you once again, ill calm down when this job is finished, but I feel savage with so much anxiety.
I have like almost no anxiety now that im on an AP. It disappered around my four months of being on one. But alot of my emotions went away when i got on invega. When i look back i felt more empty then anything. I actually wanted to be dead more when i got on invega then when i heard voices. But now its pretty much alright to be alive i guess. Nah its koo though i just want to not be bored all the time. Like everything is boring. I dont get excited about nada damn thing. But yea it robbed me of all my emotions for some time but my joy is back not as strong but its there. I only get aniexty when im close to the skate park as in my heart starts beating faster. But thats only because i need to warm up my legs so i can skate to the best of my ability
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It varies. With Abilify - I stayed anxious. Now Iām on a babydose of haldol and I feel blunting anxiety (and other emotions) is actually the ONLY thing it does. I donāt feel it has antipsychotic properties so much as it just makes me indifferent. I still have weird thoughts, but it just stops there. And it doesnāt start a downward spiral of increasing weird thoughts, leading to increasing fear, leading to increasing weird thoughts, leading eventually to thinking Iām in hell and experiencing paralyzing terror.
Ok, thank you for the answers, guys. Me I start to get used to my Zyprexa I find. I am not sure, but I start to be less numb, plus I start to rediscover emotions, but even the painful once again. So I am more alive now, but very anxious still, lolā¦
Itās good that you are more alive though! Isnāt it?
BTW: I donāt think the ap takes ALL the anxiety away for me either (in this dose). It just decreases it a bit, enough to go from 24/7 complete terror to manageble waves of anxiety. I use all sorts of other coping methods to decrease anxiety as well. From positive ones (e.g. chatting with a friend) to negative ones (e.g. internet addiction to distract myself).
I still have this spiral of which you talk, marian 
ā¦ I cant stop thinking of this job since nowā¦
yes, its better. I was having only painful emotions in my illness, never joy, never happiness. Just pure hell. Idk why I lost the positive ones like this in my illness. But the anxiety subsides. I guess its not strange, cause docs say aps are not the best choice against anxiety.
Hm. Too bad that you have this stupid spiral still. I understand. And yes, in illness as well, I had only (or 95%) negative emotions.
I too have this spiral still at rare times. Or the start of it at least. E.g I spiral from discovering a little cut in my lip to anxiety to thinking I have some weird illness to more anxiety to even worse fears. But it mostly stops with a few thoughts, or a bad evening at most. Instead of with me in the isolation room of a ward.
I seem to get better at curbing these thoughts, either with meds or with normal coping techniques.
Do you have techniques to curb these anxious thoughts? Can someone teach them to you? Or can you find out what stops them? Meds can be a help, but not the only one! 
They are still too strong to stop them tbhā¦ I go outside more now always with the thought, that theres nothing scary and that everything will be fine. But when I have something important, nothing helps thenā¦ I guess I need more confrontational situations, more socialization, but I need my time for thisā¦
I still lack joy and peace like emotions tbh too. You are on the right way, marian .
Ill take my klonopin then, I have no other choice. I hope just that it wont make me too sleepy. Only klonopin for now relieves my shaky hands or my waves of weakness close to faintingā¦ My thoughts are calmer with some benzos. so I presume its not a paranoia, but strong anxiety and panic? Yeah, me too I live myself sometimes still as a sinner or somethingā¦
Hm. Sorry you are feeling like that. Sometimes these thoughts can be overcome or justā¦ āignoredā, sometimes they are too strong, and they just start āspiraling downā like that, I know. Good that you go outside more. It takes time! You canāt overcome all your fears in a day! If you really need Klonopin, so be it. Just make the choices that you feel are needed, are best for you. Do you have a good therapist?
Nope. I am tired of all kind of therapies. My last pdoc even thinks, that I am paranoid schizophrenic with positive symptoms, not with negative as thought it my pdoc of before. Cause I am more active when I donāt feel fear too in a way. Fear is very bad for everything. It can cause avolition, depression etc, you know this.
Yeap, ill do it slowly and sometimes ill take the klonopin.Thank you .