So, well. I have it really bad on Zyprexa for 5 hours after it take in the evening. Please understand me, people, its beyond the depression… It kills my thinking, it kills my emotions, it puts me dark thoughts and hopelessness and it kills my will to the point that I wasn’t saying that its so much a killer for years!!! Its so bad that I can hardly move (a possible sedation would have been better than this). I don’t feel a relaxation no. I know that for some of you the sedation is bad but this happens all in my head. I don’t float on this med, it would be better I guess. It just kills my thoughts and my emotions!!! How I am gonna to do it? Its the only ap who put me on my feet and helps me to eat. all the others aps had terrible side effects on me… I still wait to see if lithium will work in the day. But in the evenings, it will be hell with this Zyprexa. It destroys every accomplished effort from my part.
Ill talk to my doc but I don’t see which med will put me on my feet as Zyprexa did but without killing my soul… I don’t live anymore and its not just my sz, I am sure of it.
I am afraid from the aps already cause some of them quite worsened my state… I am stuck. I am hopeless and numb for 5 hours every evening for god sake, its too much…
what can I do? take it right before sleep? yeah…
tell me, how bad is your ap actually?
I’ve been on a number of APs, but Latuda is the best for me. It quiets the voices down but doesn’t get rid of them completely.
My last hope is that lithium will be strong enough to counteract the Zyprexa in the day, but I still wait for this. But Zyprexa is so strong in the evenings, that I risk not to start to live because of it too. I don’t exaggerate, its killing me cause it kills totally my thoughts and my will. Plus, take from somebody his thoughts and youll see him without emotions too…
Thanks Dre for the answer, but we still don’t have latuda in my country. it wont come soon I find… Maybe, one day, ill asko some of you here to send me a bottle if its possible. It will be a big favor, but maybe ill do even this 
. Or ill check the internet here if I can order it somehow by internet, idk…
is it close to Zyprexa in your opinion dre?
Also, is it so strange that Zyprexa doesn’t relieve my fears or my paranoia? I am afraid that the others will be afraid from me in a way. I am almost ready to scream outside because of this. I don’t scream of course, but I feel like this… I guess I feel like an open book to others when I feel my ‘‘paranoia’’ or whatever it is. And the result is that I fake smiles to seem more pleasant, I fake behavior etc etc but I am basically a ghost now…
I’ve had both terrible side effects and then minor side effects. Now I have minor sexual side effects. I am on 7.5 mg of Abilify, 300 mg of clozapine, and Lexapro for depression When I had bad site effects my stomach would be so sick that I couldn’t eat and I couldn’t even drink enough. Also my heart rate would speed up. Another one was I felt edgy in my mind and anxious in my mind.
My mother doesn’t believe in my recovery anymore… She says that maybe I could have had chances of some life if I was from the schizophrenics with positive symptoms… Today is hard. I don’t believe it either cause my brain is total mess.
I’ve changed my meds fairly regularly over the years. I even did clinical trials to help approve Abilify and Latuda. I tend to go with the latest meds based on what my doctor’s at the time recommend. I did notice that Zyprexa kinda dulled my personality and made me a little apathetic, but it could have just been the shitty circumstances of how I lived at the time. The best med I ever took was on another study, a once a month shot of Invega. My other two favorites were Geodon and finally Fanapt., which was the last med I took regularly. I would have stayed on the Invega shots, but that would have disqualified me from further studies. Right now I’m on a study drug and I feel fine. Fairly mild symptoms when I’m stressed, but none of the meds completely got rid of the voices. Maybe it’s time to try a newer med. Or maybe just a different med.
Thanks for the message eighty. Me and my mother are both tired of trying meds. I didn’t like invega neither abilify. I tried Geodon but it made me shaky and I stopped it(maybe too fast to see an improvement). I don’t have voices. I am just paranoid, anxious, with no personality at all and without positive emotions(I guess I am too low always). Have troubles thinking and speaking.
Hey Anna1, I thought you were going to try a new AP.
It’s bad. 
you like voices? your AP doesn’t get rid of them completely, yet you think it’s the best AP
@Om_Sadasiva Iv e been through Abilify, Saphris,Risperidone, Loxapine, and Latuda. I mentioned that Latuda works best for me meaning better than the other ones I tried. Sorry if I confused you.
No I don’t like the voices but I’m trying my best to find something that will get rid of them. Apparently, Clozapine is the best anti psychotics yet, but I’m not going to take it because it lowers your immune system.