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When I was younger I had no idea that I was going to get sz

When I was younger I had no idea that I was going to get sz. After a while, I kept thinking…man, I can’t believe I have sz. I also thought I can’t beleive I am on disability.

It happens. Please don’t open any more posts tonight! You’ve a number open already and it’s quiet time for the boards so please don’t spam and let others have a go. I dealt with symptoms all my life in hindsight…didn’t even know what schizophrenia was and when diagnosed was trying to explain everything as having multiple personalities…that was my knowledge of sz.

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Yeah, I did not believe it even after I was diagnosed for some time Jake. It took getting stabilized on meds for me to be able to look back and understand that I was delusional.

Yeah, same. I don’t have sz, I just have horrible depression with psychosis.

Life is weird. But that’s why it’s life.

Schizophrenia hit me like a ton of bricks.When I was younger I thought i’d never be ill.

I remember telling my ex when I was 19 that I could develop schizophrenia… (my uncle had it and for some reason my mom or someone told me I could get it) even when it did hit me, I didn’t realize what was happening. I had no clue what having schizophrenia was like until I got it myself.

Most of my life had sucked up to that point so more suck wasn’t a big surprise. Overcoming it and having a good life was the surprise.

I had not the slightest idea.
I always felt special, some kind of grandeur.

The diagnosis hit me hard. I think it led to me falling into a deeper depression for a long time until I came to terms with it.

Yeah, I am extremely thankful for disability, but I felt humiliated at the same time because I couldn’t look after myself. Up until I became unwell I had always had a job since I was about 11-12 years old, and I worked full time when I wasn’t in school. It wasn’t until I had a med change a few years ago that I started feeling better and I work part time now so that makes me feel a little better, I am contributing now instead of just taking. (No offence to anyone that can’t work, I’ve been there)

I had small signs of hallucinating as a child. I was also introverted, highly imaginative, and more than a little paranoid that people were out to get me. The environment was always felt so painful, and I was considered over-sensitive. But I never expected to run into so much trouble as an adult. :sob:

Me, my mom and siblings always knew my dad was off his rockers but for some reason I never suspected that I could possibly grow up to be like him. Even though I was just like him in almost every other way.